जिन्दा हो तुम..!!

एक एहसास के अभी जिन्दा हो तुम
कभी इस एहसास को एहसास  करने का वक़्त निकालो यारों
कि छोड़ कर तुम भागना आज
कुछ अधूरी रह गई ख्वाइशों पर नज़र डालो यारों
आँखें बंद करके एक लम्हा
जरा इस वक़्त कि रफ़्तार तो पहचानो यारों

कैसा है ये सफ़र जिंदगी का
कि चल रहा है वक़्त उसी रफ़्तार से
पर ना जाने जिंदगी थम सी गई है कहीं

जीने की खातिर खुदको रोज़ मार देते हैं
दिल में बसें अरमानों को मज़ाक में टाल देते हैं
जीने कि उम्र में टूट रहें  हैं हम
धड़कता दिल सुनके याद आता है कि जिन्दा हैं हम

रात के अंधेरो में जब कुछ यादों को बटोरा
एहसास हुआ कि कितने वक़्त से रोये नहीं
नींद तो रोज़ आ जाती है लेकिन
ना जाने कितने वक़्त से सोये नहीं

अधूरे ख्वाब अधूरी चाहत
सब अधूरा ही रह  जाएगा
निकल जाएगा ये वक़्त यूँ ही कश्मकश में
सब वक़्त यूँ ही गवां देने से पहले

एक एहसास के अभी जिन्दा हो तुम
कभी इस एहसास को एहसास करने का वक़्त निकालो यारों
कि छोड़ कर तुम भागना आज
कुछ अधूरी रह गई ख्वाइशों पर नज़र डालो यारों

जिंदगी आजकल...

Had written this poem long back, posting it here today ...

लेकर चले थे जो एक छोटी सी ख्वाइश घर से
ना जाने कितनी दूर आ गए हैं
हो चुकी ना जाने कितनी ख्वाइशे पूरी
फिर भी ना जाने क्यों है जिंदगी अधूरी

अनजानों के साथ अनजानी राह पर चलते
ना जाने अपने कब अनजान हो गए
भागते रहे हम दूर इतना कि
अपने ही घर में मेहमान हो गए

हँसते हैं मुस्कुराते हैं और इश्क भी जताते हैं
फिर भी न जाने क्यों अपने को तनहा ही पाते हैं
कोई सुन न ले रात में ये सिसकिया हमारी
कुछ इसलिए भी हम रात जाग कर बिताते हैं

चलते जा रहे हैं हम दूर पर मंजिल नजर आती नहीं
खरीदे हुए सामानों से मन तो बहलता है पर ख़ुशी नजर आती नहीं
देखते हैं पुरानी यादो को अक्सर
पर याद क्यों अब रुलाती नहीं

मन करता है की जा सकू फिर से वापस
ले सकू सुकून  की एक नींद यू दादी की गोद में
रो सकू जी भर के जहाँ
और बता सकू की क्यों रोया हूँ मैं

पर फंस गया हूँ जिंदगी में इस खातिर
की बस अब यही सब सोचता हूँ मैं
रोज सोते वक़्त आँखों से आते पानी को
ना टूट जाने के डर से पोंछता हु मैं

ना जाने हर रात को बैचैन सा
यही सब सोचता हु मैं ॥

Missing you :(

There are times when i miss you a lot
I remember all the time i spent with you
When i close my eyes and see you face smiling at me
Afraid of opening my eyes as i know you would not be there

If you think i don't love you
Or i don't have time for you
Someday when no is around
Meet my pillow which carries a lot of secrets

I ran for you, I fought for you
And finally when i reached to you
All i saw is your back
Saying me a little word "BYE"

Even though i smile a lot
Sometimes my heart aches too
Even though i never complain anything
But i could have complains too

I wish you were here to talk with me
To understand me, To make me stop crying
To hug me and Make me feel
That you will never leave me alone EVER!! :(

Happy New Year :)

Years come and years go
short spans of time lined in row
one ends and another begins
All we do is look back and see what went wrong
Keep new resolutions for another year

As life goes on with seconds and breaths
All we know we have today...
to live to celebrate to fall in love to cheer
to earn to spend to fight to hate to cry

May you live all of your today with all you want today for another year and year
Happy New Year to all my readers and friends. Keep smiling and stay tuned.

हर तरफ लगे हैं मेले ....

हर तरफ लगे हैं मेले 

बस खुशिओ का समां है

आज देखा हर तरफ

मेरा भारत जवा है

निकला जब लोगो का काफिला

तिरंगे को लेकर

आज देखा देशप्रेम का

असली जज्बा यहाँ है

ना जात पात का नाटक

ना दिलो में दूरिया हैं

आज देखो भारत की

सच्ची एकता यहाँ हैं

बीस साल बाद फिर से 

एक तूफ़ान आया है

विश्व-कप जीत कर भारत ने 

दुनिया भर में तिरंगा फेहराया है 

आज सारी रात बस जश्न की रात है

क्रिकेट का भगवान् सचिन हमारे साथ है

चलो मिल कर करते हैं जश्न

आज जश्न में पूरा वतन हमारे साथ है 

Why when i know all...

Why I wait for you, every time

Why I die, to hear your voice 

Why I always want to make u mine

When I know the truth, we are different like water and wine

I know all we will be never be one

I don’t know why this thought always comes

 I don’t know that I belong to you or not 

The only thing I will say forget me not

We will be friends till the end of life

That relation would be pure as divine

With filling each other's heart with beautiful smile J

Cruelest Love .... :(

LOVE!! The most complex thing ever existed in this world. I tried to find almost everything about it. We worship love which teaches us how to live. The whole world you can see in her one smile. They are luckier who get it. Love makes people happy forever. J

And than there is another kind of love, the cruelest kind, the one which almost kills its victim and its called unrequited love. To which I know much deeper. I suppose I think about love more then anyone really should.

Most of the stories which we often see are about the people who fall in love with each other, but how about few others, those of them who fall in love alone!!! Victims of the one sided affair. They are the cursed of the loved ones. They are the loved ones walking wounded.

You loved someone, so deeply without any demand, with all your heart because you loved. But then time comes which makes you realize that it was no good. And then you think those were the worst years of your life, the worst birthdays, new years, and celebrations. The time you have been in love have been the darkest days of your life. All because you are cursed by being in love with the one who does not and will not love you back.

But still you think about her and dream about her. You think like - .

Why am I attracted to a person I know isn’t good but Every time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over. Oh god!! Just a sight of her, heart pounding, throat thickening, absolutely can’t swallow. You wanna forget everything but when she comes in front of you, you can’t resist, can’t control, you don’t know how and what happens to you. And you lose that argument with yourself that she is not for you, because you want to believe that you are wrong. Every time she does something that tells you she’s no good, you ignore it.

And then one day when you come across to your known reality, you feel like broken, flawless tears, you wanna go alone and alone, just out of this world, out of all relations. And it can actually ache in places that you didn’t know you had inside you. It doesn’t matter how many clothes you get or gyms you join, how many glasses of wine you drink, you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder where did you go wrong and how you could have misunderstood. And then you feel how ugly, useless you are. No one loves you, don’t even thinks about you.

Things end!!!

And how in the hell for that moment…you could think that you were that happy?? And sometimes you can even convince yourself …that she’ll see the light and show up at your door…And after all that … however long “all that” may be …you will go somewhere new… And you will meet people who will make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back…And all that fuzzy stuff…those years of your life that you wasted …that will eventually begin to fade…


Courtesy "The holiday"

My very first Kiss ...

Hi Friends,

Before you proceed with this poem I just wanted to let you know that this one is little different, you might not like the subject, content or whole drama. Go ahead at your own risk. JJJ

I remember that night, when you were with me

In that park under that tree

So Close to you feeling the heat

That sound which was too loud was my heart’s beat….

I lifted you up in my arms

Making you assure there will be no harm

When I slipped you slight and you hold me tight

I felt your breath and said it’s all right….

I heard your heart and felt the warmth

What I found was the aim of my birth

For the very first time the time stood still

Your soft skin which I could feel

Your real beauty which I could reveal

My ears were having sound of peal….

You put your hand on my thighs

 Came so closer and closed you eyes

I felt your breath and your lips

It was you pouring your own nips….

My body shuddered out of my choice

I felt the whisper of your warm voice

We wanted it for so long

It made our feelings truly strong….

I leaned on you and felt the touch

This was the time I loved you so much

I leaned back tried to resist

But these were my lips just wanted to be kissed….

You held me tight all through night

Knowing the fact it is not right

I felt complete and full of bliss

It was the memorable my very first Kiss….

खेल ..||

तेरेह साल के किशोर ने शायद कभी सोचा भी नही होगा की किस्मत उससे इस तरह बर्ताव करेगी|

उसे याद है आज भी वो दिन जब वह सौतेली माँ की मार के डर से घर से भाग आया था| उसके पास कुछ भी नही था करने को, भूख प्यास से भटकते-भटकते आखिर में सड़क पर एक कार से टकरा कर गिर पड़ा| गला प्यास के मारे सूखता हुआ और पैर से रक्त रिसने लगा था| उसे लगा की शायद वह अब और ना जी सकेगा| भरी गर्मी में सड़क पर पड़े किशोर को उठाने का समय किसी के पास भी नही था| पास ही के घर में ग्यारेह साल की रश्मि जिसने ये देखा, उससे ये सहा न गया और उसने अपनी माँ को कुछ करने को कहा|
माँ ने किशोर को कुछ लोगो की सहायता से बरामदे में लिटाया और उससे पानी पिलाया| पूछने पर जब किशोर ने अपनी पूरी कहानी सुनाई तब रश्मि की माँ को समझ नही आया की क्या जवाब दिया जाए| उन्होंने उसे पूछा अगर वह काम करने का इच्छुक है, किशोर ने तुर्रंत हां बोल दिया| उससे आसरा मिला और काम करने पर इज्ज़त भी| धीरे धीरे वह घर में घुलने मिलने लगा| खाली समय में वह रश्मि के साथ खेल लेता था|

रश्मि की मुस्कराहट उसे बहुत पसंद थी| जब खेल खेल में रश्मि खिलखिला उठती थी तो उससे देख कर उसकी ख़ुशी का ठिकाना ना रहता था| माँ ने अपने घर के बाहर का छोटा कमरा किशोर को दे दिया था| घर का काम हो जाने पर वह अपने कमरे में आराम कर सकता था| पर रश्मि के साथ खेलते समय उससे समय का सुध ही नही रहता था| माँ को उसका रश्मि के साथ इतना घुलना मिलना पसंद नही था| काम ख़त्म होने के बाद जब माँ उससे अपने कमरे में जाने को बोलती थी तो वह कुछ और काम तलाश करने लगता जिससे वह थोड़ी और देर घर में रह सके एवं रश्मि की मुस्कराहट को निहार सके, सुन सके| शायद वो उसे अच्छी लगने लगी थी| रश्मि जोकि स्वाभाव से चंचल और कोमल ह्रदय की थी उससे इस बात का कुछ आभास नही था बस उससे एक साधारण सा दोस्त ही समझती थी| समय निकलता गया और किशोर के दिल में रश्मि के लिए जगह बदती चली गई| उससे डर लगता था कि किसी दिन वह रश्मि को खो ना दे|
कहते हैं अच्छा समय पंछी की तरह फुर्र हो जाता है| एक समय आया जब रश्मि को शिक्षा के लिए दुसरे शहर में जाना था| किशोर उसकी माँ से बार-बार अनुरोध करने लगा की रश्मि को यही पड़ने दें| उनके ना कहने पर वह बोला की उससे रश्मि के साथ भेज दिया जाए वह वहां पर उसका काम कर दिया करेगा और इस तरह रश्मि को पढाई में कोई बाधा नही आएगी| रश्मि की माँ को समझ में नही आ रहा था की वह ऐसा क्यों कह रहा है और उसके सभी तर्क खारिज कर दिए गए|
कल जब रश्मि के जाने का समय में सिर्फ २ ही दिन बचे थे तो अनायास ही उसके मुह से निकल गया की वह रश्मि के बिना यहाँ नही रह पाएगा| वह नही जानता था की उसने ऐसा क्यों कहा पर शायद यह कह देना ही उसकी आखिरी उम्मीद बची थी| रश्मि और उसकी माँ यह सुनके जड़ रह गए| रश्मि सोच रही थी कि ना जाने क्यों वो उसके बारे में ऐसा सोचता है जबकि उसने उससे कभी एक दोस्त से ज्यादा नही समझा| क्या उसके साथ थोडा खिलखिलाना ही उसकी भूल थी? माँ को अपने कानो पर विशवास नही हो रहा था| किशोर अब कुछ सोचने या बोलने की अवस्था में नही था| शायद उसने कुछ ऐसा सपना देख लिया था जो कभी सच्चाई में नही बदल सकता था| रश्मि के पिता जोकि पोलिस में अफसर थे उनसे ये सहन नही हुआ और उन्होंने बिना कुछ सोचे समझे किशोर को अपनी बेल्ट से मारना चालू कर दिया| थोड़ी ही देर में उसे उसके सामान के साथ बहार फ़ेक दिया गया| जिस्म पर दर्द और ह्रदय में एक टीस सी उठ रही थी|

एक दिन वह घर के सामने पड़ा रहा भूखा प्यासा, दर्द से बेहाल बस इसी फ़िक्र में की शायद रश्मि उससे एक नज़र देखे और उससे अन्दर बुला ले| आज जब ऐसा कुछ भी ना हुआ तो उससे अपना पहला दिन याद आया की किस तरह उसे उस घर में पनाह मिली थी| उसने कुछ सोचा और अपनी किस्मत पर अपने अप से ज्यादा विशवास किया और रश्मि के घर की तरफ चल पड़ा| अधमरी हालत में उसे कुछ आभास नही था अचानक एक जीप से टक्कर खा कर गिर पड़ा| आँखों से आंसू और शरीर से रक्त रिसने लगा| उसने आंखिरी बार उस घर की तरफ नज़र उठा कर देखा, शायद फिर से रश्मि उससे बचा ले| पर आज कोई नही था, सिर्फ वो और उसकी किस्मत|  और उसकी आँखे धीरे धीरे बंद हो गई ||

Cost and Worth!!

63 years of independence!! Long journey. Juggernaut towards success. 

Today we celebrated 63 years of freedom. Extensive speeches had been given from our esteemed leaders. Real power and achievements of the country were being shown. New opportunities were being promised. Flags were upraised. They told us how we are doing and pretended like we are the greatest. Champs are here!!! So indirectly we saw how a beautiful lie lools like.

I noticed so many changes in last couple of days. People changed their profile pictures, taglines and status. In couple of days everyone started feeling proud to be an Indian. Three colours got some attention. People sent messages for wishing each other the same, few didn't even know the exact value of it. Few people are not happy because this time it came on Sunday and so it wasted an extra holiday. 

Corporate world is not bad too; it tried to make highest money it could have done. Telecommunication companies are not giving even a single message for free on this day. Malls have given little extra offers on this day [which doesn't make any difference exactly] to earn little extra. Transport had demanded whatever they wanted. Movie channels were trying to show as more advertisements as they can. News channels were covering everything for increasing their TRP.  And everyone tried their best!!!

I usually keep listening from many of us that INDIA is not doing good, we have few pets like corruption, unemployment, poverty, population etc etc. , to which we love a lot. If I keep writing they are never going to end. India still has world's largest poor people in a single country, though we have largest rich people in a single country too. Sitting on the chair I am thinking who India is or who exactly is doing all this to us, who is exactly responsible for these all things?? 

The answer is as simple as it is - WE ARE INDIA. WE ARE DOING ALL THIS. WE ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR ALL OF THESE CIRCUMSTANCES. WE ARE DOING IT EVERYDAY!!!

Speaking something to someone for improving on something is the easiest thing someone can do, and that's what we do. Giving lecture's and advices on all these things is too easy. This is not someone special who is corrupted. This is the power of that chair on which we sit and work. That chair gives us power and our greed blinds us towards judgement.

So these are WE who are corrupted, Stop blaming others. If we really need some improvements in INDIA then keep in mind - we are INDIA. Improve own selves and India will improve. 

This is the time to bring change in India, in all of us. If we will not change then India will not changes!!!

This is the time to differentiate between COST and WORTH!!

I am IN are you??? 

JAI HIND....Happy Independence Day!

Writing ..An Amazing Feeling!!

Few days back i was wondering why people write things in blogs, in wordpress and in their own personal sites or dairies. 

Sharing is the natural behavior of human. We all got complicated brains. Our brain remains active 24 hours and does something something. Thinking capability of brain is the ultimate quality. Sometimes whatever we think we want to share without caring who the well going to read it. But writing it somewhere gives the ultimate relief and shows us that how closely we can make people understand our thoughts.

Blogging or writing is not just about getting appreciated for the work or the flow of words we have drawn. It is about writing something that you cannot keep in your brain. Thoughts which hit our mind each second, each place and just wanna come out of the brain.

It helps us a lot. There are two kind of people. Introvert and extrovert. Fortunately both loves writing, but both have different aims behind their writings and impact appears in the writing. Writing things gives us freedom to have a look from outside on what we are, what we exactly think or what we want. I am writing since long time as it gives me little room out of my busy life and helps me keep smiling. I don't wanna share my pains with anyone but at least i can write them and definitely one day when i will be very happy or will be out of some pain, i will visit my writings and i am sure i will laugh :)


Writing is a good thing, whoever is reading this post i would say read a lot and write a lot. Stay Happy.


Here is a BIG THANKS to Bloggers, Wordpress which made very easy for us to express our thoughts globally and definitely vice versa knowing thoughts of others as well unknowns is just feels amazing.Keep writing the good stuff :)


Have a Great day!

Gossip Time!!!..Relations!

Life always goes on with lots of learning’s and dense situations in undergoing relations.

In our life the most handle with care thing is our relations. Now day’s relations became the hottest theme to chitchat about.

Rajiv who saw his co-worker Ankit with one young woman at so many places assumed that she is his girlfriend. And it won't take even a single second to start gossip about this one. Whenever Ankit receive a call from anywhere and goes little out to talk clearly, gossip comes in. Whereas Ankit who is an innocent guy, didn’t even had little clue about it. Later after 2-3 days when Ankit got to be familiar about it, he was shocked because that girl was his cousin.....He thought...what a crap, at least think before you speak.

Now a day’s people are attracted about other's life that what’s going on there rather then focussing at their own life and then they speak anything about anyone’s life!!!...I in truth don't understand why they do the same. If you are really interested in that persons life and want to know what’s going on, Do some dare go and ask, lets see what happens.

If someone is roaming around with his/her opposite sex friend people would start rumours about them. The only thing I know is I don't understand why people speak if they don't understand things. Don't you have same relation with any of your friend?

Having tough time with all these. The only output I see from all these things is a single line ---

Everything looks funny unless it happens to YOU!!!

Birthday Blast :)

Just few seconds back the clock’s needle touched 12 and made me realised another year is added to my existence.

Speaking to my friend over phone & receiving birthday wishes. No expectations for any bolt from the blue and not even equipped. A sudden flash and 2 familiar faces entered in my room and that’s Dheeraj and his wife Iti with my roommate Aashish, Who brought all of the bliss for me to my birthday this year. Unexpected fortunes gives you most pleasure when you are not even ready for them. Gigantic Thanks to all these friends and you guys please don’t say NO.

They came up, shouted birthday wishes loudly and started giving me birthday bombs. And I bet they were real BOMBS, I still feel the explosionJ. Time to do little dance and cut cake. The dance was really amazing just prepared and executed in a well way. Director was DheerajJ. I cut the cake and they just polished my face with it. I can’t even make it up to open my eyes. Went and washed my face, second session started and that polish came again to meL. Captured so many pictures and videos. In between phone calls keep coming, and I was really having hard time to bring them reply.

Each time I thought it’s an end, it was just a pause. They polished my face 4 times with cake which entered in almost each of the hole available in my face. It’s my duty to share all my happiness with my friends and so I polished their faces too with that cakeJ. Iti acted very idly and concentrated her fingers on the camera. We sang the birthday song and finally ate one piece of cake. Time to open the gift and it was a Magnet Dart BoardJ. I wished they could have pasted someone’s picture on both sides of itJ which definitely would have brought the real contentment in targeting that boardJ. They asked me to have that board hanging at my chest to try some shotsL. With these all things finally the night surprise ended hereJ

At birthday being in office sucks but can’t help. Enjoyed day with real friends in office too. One of my close friends has provided me whole day Birthday support by keep communicating on E-Mail. That was the cutest thing I didn’t thought about. After completing the office shift the OnCall Birthday support was being provided by the same friend. That’s so sweet of you and that really makes my day. Special Thanks to YOUJ .

All is well that ends well. Phone calls are still coming. Ending the day and quoting the memories.

Once again thanks to all you for making this day unforgettable. 

You…

Hey honey you are the beautiful girl

Shines like a pearl

You change everything with a single smile

People come across you for making their life worthwhile

No one is more special then you

Tell me what I need to do

To remain always be with you

There are so many who loves you

There are so many who cares for you

I got a little heart too

Which beats for you…which feels for you....

To keep your face always smiling

I will never face trouble in every number dialling

To make you happy from inside

I will make each bad thing to you hide

Here are my words coming from my heart

You will never know how I feel for you

You will never know how much I care you

You will never know someone never forgets you

You will never know someone who bets you

Your friendship is the most precious thing to me

Please don’t afraid of coming near me

This time I should finally let this go

A day will come when I could finally let you know

Till then I would try to be your nearest friend

My feelings for you will never end…
Everything in my life just starts with you and ends with you...!

Happy Birthday :)

 Happy birthday…This is a beautiful day

On your very special day, I just want to say….

Today is your day…you can shout and shout

We all care for you…there is no doubt

I would pray to god…that let you be always the same

And definitely you will get your desired fame

Day after day you are getting older and older

But in my life your name is getting bolder and bolder

There are so many wishes for you…pop in my heart

If my life is a story then you are the most imp part

You are always been so sweet and understanding

Well it’s your time to be little demanding

In toughest times you have laugh and smiles

Let’s celebrate the day and open the wines

On your very special day, I just want to say

You can count on me… I will always stay

No matter it’s the day or it’s the night

I will never look its wrong or its rite

I am happy that you are here…

I will always have things to share

It’s your birthday…So enjoy till the best…

Happy birthday…This is a beautiful day…

I had so much but words are not enough to convey! 

Why i do.... What i do... :(

Every time I start thinking about you…I think why I do what I do,

Though it’s hard to hold on you… but still I always do.

What ever goes wrong I think it will be fine tomorrow,

Tomorrow comes and instead it brings sorrow,

I always think positive and wait until I will find a way,

But colours of my life are fading and everything is getting grey,

Each moment of my day I think about you,

You talk to me, I get some illusion but I feel it so true,

I have so many feelings which are hurting me inside,

Faith and truth are going to collide.

Someone said everything is fair in love and war,

And so I can do anything but I am afraid of mar,

My life is the empty sky and you are the only star,

I wanna win your heart but why I am only up to par,

I am trying to come more and more near to you,

But inside of my heart I feel you are going far and far.

I need your head on my shoulder and wanna feel you are mine,

I will leave everything for you & will always keep you divine,

I know some dreams are just for be dreams,

And to make them true you need real bloodstreams,

I wanna forget you and wanna make you as a past,

I try hard and harder then feel good things never last,

I will loose you one day with all my tears,

And then life will be easy just like yesteryears.

Every time I start thinking about you…I think why I do what I do,

Though it’s hard to hold on you… but still I always do.

Love You Mom :)

Oh my dear god...

Am thankful to you, you are here with me in form of mother...

My only wish is let’s always be together

i find you doing everything for me...

No matter how difficult that's gonna be

Don’t know how you know what I need

And you just give it to me without any greed

To make me sleep you were singing a song

No matter I was taking time too much long

You told me so many stories on stars

You were keeping me safe you were shadowing me under wars

Whoever i see whoever I meet, I feel you are the best

You are the one and all apart are rest

Thanks for being my mother...I will never make you any other

On this mother's day...I wanna let you know...i love you so much my mother :)

Oh my dear god...

Am thankful to you, you are here with me in form of mother...

My only wish is let’s always be together J J

Desires Continues...!!

The other name of life is DESIRE. Desires make us breathe, impatient, stirring & keep operational.

We are human and every human being has so many desires, no one knows how many of those are going to get complete and how many are not to. We survive our existence with optimism and desperation towards our desires. We are living here on earth, where each individual is self-centred and hungry for there desires.

I am sitting at my chair and it is 4AM midnight, thinking about the life how it is changed completely but I do have a thing which is still the same and that thing is desire. Desire’s to achieve, Desire’s to win, Desire’s to Desire.

Not able to understand human nature. When I was small I had desire to come out from school, when I became quite younger I had desire to come out of the college and  I finally started my job but I still have desire to quit my job and do something else. Before celebrating the achievement of completion of one desire we will get another subsequent one. I don't understand why I get these and i am damm sure if I will quit my job and do something else, I will get some desire there too. 

If God really exists s/he must be laughing at our nature that how do we do and appeal again again and again to get fulfilled our silly desire's, matter of fact is we never say Thanks too :) until and unless we realize that it wasn't done by our own effort or we really didn't even deserve what we got.

Anyway even after knowing everything we can't rule anything. Even right now I have one strongest desire and I have a sense this is my last one ;) But who have seen the future.

Restless brain...Need some satisfaction...Need something badly...

"I wanna go there where no one has desires...Life is the greatest gift, wanna live it before it expires..." 

Missing you :( :(

Sitting lonely at the chair...Thinking about the past

Thinking about you...Thinking about my wish...will that come true?

It’s been a short time I met with you...it’s been a short time I talk with you

It’s been a short time I saw you...but that’s my heart knows how long it is for me

I open my cell and your name comes up there...though I was trying to do something else

I open my mouth to speak and your name comes at my tongue...though I was trying to speak something else

And that time I feel...How much I want you...how much I love you...& how much I miss you

Every time I open my system...I wanna see your picture...though I don’t have any...

I want you more and more, close and close...just hoping you won't deny

Whenever my eyelashes meet...they create your picture smiling at a beautiful site

I become so happy...my face glows and glows....and I feel like a kite

And that time I feel...How much I want you...how much I love you...& how much I miss you

Whenever we are apart...I wish you could see my heart

But I keep telling my heart...no worries our soles are not apart

I know we will meet very soon...your memories are just feeding the spoon

But deep in my heart...I feel sounds calling you...and all loneliness without you

And that time I feel…How much I want you...how much I love you...& how much I miss you

Without you I see myself as a body without soul....and life looks likes as an empty bowl

Without you I feel like i am standing in the hell....and you are the one for whom I yell

Without you there is no meaning of my smile, feelings and happiness…

My life looks like crap and whole things there like mess...

And that time I feel…How much I want you...how much I love you...& how much I miss you

I remember the time you spent with me...My smile gets broader and broader

I have belief at god...though he tests me harder and harder

I miss you that much I don't have words to say...I believe both of us will be together one day

More I think of you...More I weep…More I think of you…You enter more deep

And that time I feel…How much I want you...how much I love you...& how much I miss you

Sitting lonely at the chair...Thinking about the past

Thinking about you...Thinking about my wish...will that come true?

Oh...My sweet Home..!!

Oh my sweet home I am missing you too much, I see people going home and my heart goes down

I remember all those sweet and precious moments I had there, I never thought while leaving i will miss you this much here

You have nothing special to be admired...Just a place to stay with family

But it is the place where I spent my whole life, shared all the bad and good time with you

I remember the fights I had with my siblings...and you were the best one among all buildings

Though roofs were leaking under heavy rain...But you never brought me loneliness and pain

I think of you and my grand-mom comes in my mind....and I remember no one will be anywhere so kind

The place where someone was giving me bed tea's ...and each of my silly demand was making them tease

We played almost all the games... I remember our funny activities and silly aims

Feeling there the fresh air there in my vain...I don’t know when I will come there to feel it again

It was very good to run for catching a kite...and roaming here and there in dark when there was no light

I admit I participated in all games of dolls...and we jumped high walls to find our lost balls

I still have the taste of grandma's cooking... All things were so tasty and we were never boozing

I loved you so much that I never wanted to leave you even for going school...because home was the only place where I can rule

There is no place like you...where some one feels like so true...

Where someone can have the real rest....among all the places I visited you are the best

Now to reach to my home is not so ease...but that place really brings me the real peace

oh my sweet home there is no place like you....Oh my sweet home there is no place like you

I wanna come back so soon....I wanna come back so soon!!

Oh my sweet home I am missing you too much, I see people going home and my heart goes down

I remember all those sweet and precious moments I had there, I never thought while leaving i will miss you this much here