Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Cruelest Love .... :(

LOVE!! The most complex thing ever existed in this world. I tried to find almost everything about it. We worship love which teaches us how to live. The whole world you can see in her one smile. They are luckier who get it. Love makes people happy forever. J

And than there is another kind of love, the cruelest kind, the one which almost kills its victim and its called unrequited love. To which I know much deeper. I suppose I think about love more then anyone really should.

Most of the stories which we often see are about the people who fall in love with each other, but how about few others, those of them who fall in love alone!!! Victims of the one sided affair. They are the cursed of the loved ones. They are the loved ones walking wounded.

You loved someone, so deeply without any demand, with all your heart because you loved. But then time comes which makes you realize that it was no good. And then you think those were the worst years of your life, the worst birthdays, new years, and celebrations. The time you have been in love have been the darkest days of your life. All because you are cursed by being in love with the one who does not and will not love you back.

But still you think about her and dream about her. You think like - .
Why am I attracted to a person I know isn’t good but Every time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over. Oh god!! Just a sight of her, heart pounding, throat thickening, absolutely can’t swallow. You wanna forget everything but when she comes in front of you, you can’t resist, can’t control, you don’t know how and what happens to you. And you lose that argument with yourself that she is not for you, because you want to believe that you are wrong. Every time she does something that tells you she’s no good, you ignore it.

And then one day when you come across to your known reality, you feel like broken, flawless tears, you wanna go alone and alone, just out of this world, out of all relations. And it can actually ache in places that you didn’t know you had inside you. It doesn’t matter how many clothes you get or gyms you join, how many glasses of wine you drink, you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder where did you go wrong and how you could have misunderstood. And then you feel how ugly, useless you are. No one loves you, don’t even thinks about you.

Things end!!!

And how in the hell for that moment…you could think that you were that happy?? And sometimes you can even convince yourself …that she’ll see the light and show up at your door…And after all that … however long “all that” may be …you will go somewhere new… And you will meet people who will make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back…And all that fuzzy stuff…those years of your life that you wasted …that will eventually begin to fade…

Courtesy "The holiday"


  1. nice one...isi baat pe tere ko kissi karne ka mann kar raha ha:P

  2. well, i had read somewhere "Even love unreturned has its rainbow...."...... if its true then one must feel those colour even if its a one sided affair.....

  3. Very true feeling you have discussed here...That actually happens with almost people.
    The person to whom we think our everything, Unfortunatly they don't even respect to our emotions and feelings !!

    And the last paragraph is also very true...Life takes turn in everyone's life.

  4. Nice one but i dont understand why people always define love in gf context; it is rather too wide to explore, love is just a feeling strong enough to change ur outlook towards world just enjoy its brights n darks to the fullest

  5. @Utkarsh ....Yes Sire Love is too wide, and it is too wide to be explained in words so i just took a tiny part of it and wrote my feelings :)

  6. Thanks Simran :) Life is full of happiness, love and sorrows. If we dont get each of these things we would understand the value of it. And that's why its called life :)

  7. Irfan i am agree with you :)

    It is always good to enjoy each and every situation of our life doesn't matter how cruel it is :)

  8. Accha likha h. Visting your page after long time and glad to see ur posts.