It's you :)

When i came to you

i felt the shelter

i felt the rest

i found the peace

I find no other

Who can fill in your shoes

No money no person nothing else

And the best thing i know is

You are always with me

Doesn’t matter

How far i am

How poor i am

Or how sick i am

I know i can always count on you

It's you who loved me since you saw me

It’s you to whom i owe my whole life

It’s you

"My family" :)

Why when i know all...

Why I wait for you, every time

Why I die, to hear your voice 

Why I always want to make u mine

When I know the truth, we are different like water and wine

I know all we will be never be one

I don’t know why this thought always comes

 I don’t know that I belong to you or not 

The only thing I will say forget me not

We will be friends till the end of life

That relation would be pure as divine

With filling each other's heart with beautiful smile J

I lost you...

Yesterday night while seeing your pictures

I thought if I could hold you tight

Wanted real presence of yours

Which I could catch in my sight

A silent tear rolled out of my eyes

And I realised … I lost you

Regret is the only feeling which I feel everyday

Feelings which I have are not easy to say

The only thing I know I didn’t deserve this pain

I had something real which is flowing in my vein

My heart you took and broke it badly

Something which hurt me so deadly

I looked at your smiling face, tried out find out why

It was all I could do, to not to begin cry

While sleeping if look at the sky

I could make your picture and feel like cry

On bed I thought who is my best buddy?

Who do I love the most?

And I realised … I lost you

Feeling this much pain

Thought someone I could have

Who could feel me, make me laugh and smile

Walk with me for a longer mile

And I realised … I lost you

क्यों आए तुम !!

जला के मैंने तुम्हारी आरजू , जिंदगी को अपनी दफ़न कर दिया 

हँसते मुस्कुराते चेहरे पर अपने, उदासी का कफ़न जड़ दिया 

अलग थे रास्ते अलग थी मंजिले 

फिर क्यों थोड़ी दूर भी साथ चले

वादा कर दिया जब हमने जिंदगी भर साथ निभाने के लिए 

तुम कहते हो की खेल रहे थे तुम हमे आजमानें के लिए 

बन गए हो ख्वाब बनकर सीने में इस कदर 

और चैन की नींद में हो तुम इन सबसे बेखबर

आज खुदको देखा आईने में तो एक अलग इंसान नज़र आ गया

ऐसा क्या नशा है तुम्हारा की मुझे ऐसा बना गया

मोहब्बत ही तो की कौनसा गुनाह कर दिया

बस गलती यही हुई की जो भी किया वो बेपनाह कर दिया

अब दिल चाहता है कहीं दूर चले जाने को

याद न आओ तुम कुछ ऐसा वक़्त बिताने को

जला के मैंने तुम्हारी आरजू , जिंदगी को अपनी दफ़न कर दिया 

हँसते मुस्कुराते चेहरे पर अपने, उदासी का कफ़न जड़ दिया ||

Cruelest Love .... :(

LOVE!! The most complex thing ever existed in this world. I tried to find almost everything about it. We worship love which teaches us how to live. The whole world you can see in her one smile. They are luckier who get it. Love makes people happy forever. J

And than there is another kind of love, the cruelest kind, the one which almost kills its victim and its called unrequited love. To which I know much deeper. I suppose I think about love more then anyone really should.

Most of the stories which we often see are about the people who fall in love with each other, but how about few others, those of them who fall in love alone!!! Victims of the one sided affair. They are the cursed of the loved ones. They are the loved ones walking wounded.

You loved someone, so deeply without any demand, with all your heart because you loved. But then time comes which makes you realize that it was no good. And then you think those were the worst years of your life, the worst birthdays, new years, and celebrations. The time you have been in love have been the darkest days of your life. All because you are cursed by being in love with the one who does not and will not love you back.

But still you think about her and dream about her. You think like - .

Why am I attracted to a person I know isn’t good but Every time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over. Oh god!! Just a sight of her, heart pounding, throat thickening, absolutely can’t swallow. You wanna forget everything but when she comes in front of you, you can’t resist, can’t control, you don’t know how and what happens to you. And you lose that argument with yourself that she is not for you, because you want to believe that you are wrong. Every time she does something that tells you she’s no good, you ignore it.

And then one day when you come across to your known reality, you feel like broken, flawless tears, you wanna go alone and alone, just out of this world, out of all relations. And it can actually ache in places that you didn’t know you had inside you. It doesn’t matter how many clothes you get or gyms you join, how many glasses of wine you drink, you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder where did you go wrong and how you could have misunderstood. And then you feel how ugly, useless you are. No one loves you, don’t even thinks about you.

Things end!!!

And how in the hell for that moment…you could think that you were that happy?? And sometimes you can even convince yourself …that she’ll see the light and show up at your door…And after all that … however long “all that” may be …you will go somewhere new… And you will meet people who will make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back…And all that fuzzy stuff…those years of your life that you wasted …that will eventually begin to fade…


Courtesy "The holiday"

Where is my home?

I am a women.

In my early age I always felt very happy for being worshipped at each of the occasion. Everyone told that women is equal to goddess. Getting so many gifts on different festivals always made me proud on being a women. And then with time I started getting older. Then my parents started asking me for each and everything i do that don't do it in this way, don't go out, don't wear this and that. None told none of these things to my brother, even my mother supported them. First time in my life I felt weak. I never thought it but i adjusted somehow. I was just thinking when i will get that freedom. Freedom of thoughts, freedom of doing things which i want to do, FREEDOM!
Time fled and I completed my college with one of girls college. I wanted to go out for job but none in my family supported. They told do whatever you want to do, do that after your marriage. They were trying to make me understand that this is not your HOME.

And the biggest day of my life came, got married. I was very excited that here the real life starts. I will do whatever I want to, I will wear whatever I like. Just after marriage first day i woke up little late and someone told me you should do like this, This is not your HOME. Then one day i wore jeans and everyone was just staring at me. I thought at least my husband will appreciate me or support me.Nothing happened. Whenever i tried doing something new everyone just told me that its not my home.

Everyone respected me but in actual none respected ME!

Sitting in my room i am just confused...Where is my home?

खेल ..||

तेरेह साल के किशोर ने शायद कभी सोचा भी नही होगा की किस्मत उससे इस तरह बर्ताव करेगी|

उसे याद है आज भी वो दिन जब वह सौतेली माँ की मार के डर से घर से भाग आया था| उसके पास कुछ भी नही था करने को, भूख प्यास से भटकते-भटकते आखिर में सड़क पर एक कार से टकरा कर गिर पड़ा| गला प्यास के मारे सूखता हुआ और पैर से रक्त रिसने लगा था| उसे लगा की शायद वह अब और ना जी सकेगा| भरी गर्मी में सड़क पर पड़े किशोर को उठाने का समय किसी के पास भी नही था| पास ही के घर में ग्यारेह साल की रश्मि जिसने ये देखा, उससे ये सहा न गया और उसने अपनी माँ को कुछ करने को कहा|
माँ ने किशोर को कुछ लोगो की सहायता से बरामदे में लिटाया और उससे पानी पिलाया| पूछने पर जब किशोर ने अपनी पूरी कहानी सुनाई तब रश्मि की माँ को समझ नही आया की क्या जवाब दिया जाए| उन्होंने उसे पूछा अगर वह काम करने का इच्छुक है, किशोर ने तुर्रंत हां बोल दिया| उससे आसरा मिला और काम करने पर इज्ज़त भी| धीरे धीरे वह घर में घुलने मिलने लगा| खाली समय में वह रश्मि के साथ खेल लेता था|

रश्मि की मुस्कराहट उसे बहुत पसंद थी| जब खेल खेल में रश्मि खिलखिला उठती थी तो उससे देख कर उसकी ख़ुशी का ठिकाना ना रहता था| माँ ने अपने घर के बाहर का छोटा कमरा किशोर को दे दिया था| घर का काम हो जाने पर वह अपने कमरे में आराम कर सकता था| पर रश्मि के साथ खेलते समय उससे समय का सुध ही नही रहता था| माँ को उसका रश्मि के साथ इतना घुलना मिलना पसंद नही था| काम ख़त्म होने के बाद जब माँ उससे अपने कमरे में जाने को बोलती थी तो वह कुछ और काम तलाश करने लगता जिससे वह थोड़ी और देर घर में रह सके एवं रश्मि की मुस्कराहट को निहार सके, सुन सके| शायद वो उसे अच्छी लगने लगी थी| रश्मि जोकि स्वाभाव से चंचल और कोमल ह्रदय की थी उससे इस बात का कुछ आभास नही था बस उससे एक साधारण सा दोस्त ही समझती थी| समय निकलता गया और किशोर के दिल में रश्मि के लिए जगह बदती चली गई| उससे डर लगता था कि किसी दिन वह रश्मि को खो ना दे|
कहते हैं अच्छा समय पंछी की तरह फुर्र हो जाता है| एक समय आया जब रश्मि को शिक्षा के लिए दुसरे शहर में जाना था| किशोर उसकी माँ से बार-बार अनुरोध करने लगा की रश्मि को यही पड़ने दें| उनके ना कहने पर वह बोला की उससे रश्मि के साथ भेज दिया जाए वह वहां पर उसका काम कर दिया करेगा और इस तरह रश्मि को पढाई में कोई बाधा नही आएगी| रश्मि की माँ को समझ में नही आ रहा था की वह ऐसा क्यों कह रहा है और उसके सभी तर्क खारिज कर दिए गए|
कल जब रश्मि के जाने का समय में सिर्फ २ ही दिन बचे थे तो अनायास ही उसके मुह से निकल गया की वह रश्मि के बिना यहाँ नही रह पाएगा| वह नही जानता था की उसने ऐसा क्यों कहा पर शायद यह कह देना ही उसकी आखिरी उम्मीद बची थी| रश्मि और उसकी माँ यह सुनके जड़ रह गए| रश्मि सोच रही थी कि ना जाने क्यों वो उसके बारे में ऐसा सोचता है जबकि उसने उससे कभी एक दोस्त से ज्यादा नही समझा| क्या उसके साथ थोडा खिलखिलाना ही उसकी भूल थी? माँ को अपने कानो पर विशवास नही हो रहा था| किशोर अब कुछ सोचने या बोलने की अवस्था में नही था| शायद उसने कुछ ऐसा सपना देख लिया था जो कभी सच्चाई में नही बदल सकता था| रश्मि के पिता जोकि पोलिस में अफसर थे उनसे ये सहन नही हुआ और उन्होंने बिना कुछ सोचे समझे किशोर को अपनी बेल्ट से मारना चालू कर दिया| थोड़ी ही देर में उसे उसके सामान के साथ बहार फ़ेक दिया गया| जिस्म पर दर्द और ह्रदय में एक टीस सी उठ रही थी|

एक दिन वह घर के सामने पड़ा रहा भूखा प्यासा, दर्द से बेहाल बस इसी फ़िक्र में की शायद रश्मि उससे एक नज़र देखे और उससे अन्दर बुला ले| आज जब ऐसा कुछ भी ना हुआ तो उससे अपना पहला दिन याद आया की किस तरह उसे उस घर में पनाह मिली थी| उसने कुछ सोचा और अपनी किस्मत पर अपने अप से ज्यादा विशवास किया और रश्मि के घर की तरफ चल पड़ा| अधमरी हालत में उसे कुछ आभास नही था अचानक एक जीप से टक्कर खा कर गिर पड़ा| आँखों से आंसू और शरीर से रक्त रिसने लगा| उसने आंखिरी बार उस घर की तरफ नज़र उठा कर देखा, शायद फिर से रश्मि उससे बचा ले| पर आज कोई नही था, सिर्फ वो और उसकी किस्मत|  और उसकी आँखे धीरे धीरे बंद हो गई ||

Gossip Time!!!..Relations!

Life always goes on with lots of learning’s and dense situations in undergoing relations.

In our life the most handle with care thing is our relations. Now day’s relations became the hottest theme to chitchat about.

Rajiv who saw his co-worker Ankit with one young woman at so many places assumed that she is his girlfriend. And it won't take even a single second to start gossip about this one. Whenever Ankit receive a call from anywhere and goes little out to talk clearly, gossip comes in. Whereas Ankit who is an innocent guy, didn’t even had little clue about it. Later after 2-3 days when Ankit got to be familiar about it, he was shocked because that girl was his cousin.....He thought...what a crap, at least think before you speak.

Now a day’s people are attracted about other's life that what’s going on there rather then focussing at their own life and then they speak anything about anyone’s life!!!...I in truth don't understand why they do the same. If you are really interested in that persons life and want to know what’s going on, Do some dare go and ask, lets see what happens.

If someone is roaming around with his/her opposite sex friend people would start rumours about them. The only thing I know is I don't understand why people speak if they don't understand things. Don't you have same relation with any of your friend?

Having tough time with all these. The only output I see from all these things is a single line ---

Everything looks funny unless it happens to YOU!!!

You…

Hey honey you are the beautiful girl

Shines like a pearl

You change everything with a single smile

People come across you for making their life worthwhile

No one is more special then you

Tell me what I need to do

To remain always be with you

There are so many who loves you

There are so many who cares for you

I got a little heart too

Which beats for you…which feels for you....

To keep your face always smiling

I will never face trouble in every number dialling

To make you happy from inside

I will make each bad thing to you hide

Here are my words coming from my heart

You will never know how I feel for you

You will never know how much I care you

You will never know someone never forgets you

You will never know someone who bets you

Your friendship is the most precious thing to me

Please don’t afraid of coming near me

This time I should finally let this go

A day will come when I could finally let you know

Till then I would try to be your nearest friend

My feelings for you will never end…
Everything in my life just starts with you and ends with you...!

Happy Birthday :)

 Happy birthday…This is a beautiful day

On your very special day, I just want to say….

Today is your day…you can shout and shout

We all care for you…there is no doubt

I would pray to god…that let you be always the same

And definitely you will get your desired fame

Day after day you are getting older and older

But in my life your name is getting bolder and bolder

There are so many wishes for you…pop in my heart

If my life is a story then you are the most imp part

You are always been so sweet and understanding

Well it’s your time to be little demanding

In toughest times you have laugh and smiles

Let’s celebrate the day and open the wines

On your very special day, I just want to say

You can count on me… I will always stay

No matter it’s the day or it’s the night

I will never look its wrong or its rite

I am happy that you are here…

I will always have things to share

It’s your birthday…So enjoy till the best…

Happy birthday…This is a beautiful day…

I had so much but words are not enough to convey! 

Love You Mom :)

Oh my dear god...

Am thankful to you, you are here with me in form of mother...

My only wish is let’s always be together

i find you doing everything for me...

No matter how difficult that's gonna be

Don’t know how you know what I need

And you just give it to me without any greed

To make me sleep you were singing a song

No matter I was taking time too much long

You told me so many stories on stars

You were keeping me safe you were shadowing me under wars

Whoever i see whoever I meet, I feel you are the best

You are the one and all apart are rest

Thanks for being my mother...I will never make you any other

On this mother's day...I wanna let you know...i love you so much my mother :)

Oh my dear god...

Am thankful to you, you are here with me in form of mother...

My only wish is let’s always be together J J