जिंदगी आजकल...

Had written this poem long back, posting it here today ...

लेकर चले थे जो एक छोटी सी ख्वाइश घर से
ना जाने कितनी दूर आ गए हैं
हो चुकी ना जाने कितनी ख्वाइशे पूरी
फिर भी ना जाने क्यों है जिंदगी अधूरी

अनजानों के साथ अनजानी राह पर चलते
ना जाने अपने कब अनजान हो गए
भागते रहे हम दूर इतना कि
अपने ही घर में मेहमान हो गए

हँसते हैं मुस्कुराते हैं और इश्क भी जताते हैं
फिर भी न जाने क्यों अपने को तनहा ही पाते हैं
कोई सुन न ले रात में ये सिसकिया हमारी
कुछ इसलिए भी हम रात जाग कर बिताते हैं

चलते जा रहे हैं हम दूर पर मंजिल नजर आती नहीं
खरीदे हुए सामानों से मन तो बहलता है पर ख़ुशी नजर आती नहीं
देखते हैं पुरानी यादो को अक्सर
पर याद क्यों अब रुलाती नहीं

मन करता है की जा सकू फिर से वापस
ले सकू सुकून  की एक नींद यू दादी की गोद में
रो सकू जी भर के जहाँ
और बता सकू की क्यों रोया हूँ मैं

पर फंस गया हूँ जिंदगी में इस खातिर
की बस अब यही सब सोचता हूँ मैं
रोज सोते वक़्त आँखों से आते पानी को
ना टूट जाने के डर से पोंछता हु मैं

ना जाने हर रात को बैचैन सा
यही सब सोचता हु मैं ॥

हर तरफ लगे हैं मेले ....

हर तरफ लगे हैं मेले 

बस खुशिओ का समां है

आज देखा हर तरफ

मेरा भारत जवा है

निकला जब लोगो का काफिला

तिरंगे को लेकर

आज देखा देशप्रेम का

असली जज्बा यहाँ है

ना जात पात का नाटक

ना दिलो में दूरिया हैं

आज देखो भारत की

सच्ची एकता यहाँ हैं

बीस साल बाद फिर से 

एक तूफ़ान आया है

विश्व-कप जीत कर भारत ने 

दुनिया भर में तिरंगा फेहराया है 

आज सारी रात बस जश्न की रात है

क्रिकेट का भगवान् सचिन हमारे साथ है

चलो मिल कर करते हैं जश्न

आज जश्न में पूरा वतन हमारे साथ है 

Where is my home?

I am a women.

In my early age I always felt very happy for being worshipped at each of the occasion. Everyone told that women is equal to goddess. Getting so many gifts on different festivals always made me proud on being a women. And then with time I started getting older. Then my parents started asking me for each and everything i do that don't do it in this way, don't go out, don't wear this and that. None told none of these things to my brother, even my mother supported them. First time in my life I felt weak. I never thought it but i adjusted somehow. I was just thinking when i will get that freedom. Freedom of thoughts, freedom of doing things which i want to do, FREEDOM!
Time fled and I completed my college with one of girls college. I wanted to go out for job but none in my family supported. They told do whatever you want to do, do that after your marriage. They were trying to make me understand that this is not your HOME.

And the biggest day of my life came, got married. I was very excited that here the real life starts. I will do whatever I want to, I will wear whatever I like. Just after marriage first day i woke up little late and someone told me you should do like this, This is not your HOME. Then one day i wore jeans and everyone was just staring at me. I thought at least my husband will appreciate me or support me.Nothing happened. Whenever i tried doing something new everyone just told me that its not my home.

Everyone respected me but in actual none respected ME!

Sitting in my room i am just confused...Where is my home?

जिंदगी ||

दुनिया की भीड़ में अकेला सा चल रहा हूँ ,
मुस्कराने की चाह में आंसुओं से लड़ रहा हूँ |
खुशिया बिखरीं हैं हर और मेरे ,
ना जाने हर पल क्यों यू कमजोर पढ रहा हूँ ||

चारों और बह रहीं हैं ठंडी हवाएं ,
ना जाने क्यों मैं गर्मी से भभक रहा हूँ |
उजियारा हर और छा रहा अब जिंदगी में ,
फिर क्यों अँधेरे की खातिर तड़प रहा हूँ ||

ऋणात्मकता से भर चली है ये जिंदगी ,
जाने कब ये ऋण चूका जाएगा |
प्रतीक्षा करने की आदत है मेरी और समय यू ही निकल जाएगा ,
बेक़रार हूँ में जिस कल के लिए , वो कल न जाने क्या रंग लाएगा ||

Cost and Worth!!

63 years of independence!! Long journey. Juggernaut towards success. 

Today we celebrated 63 years of freedom. Extensive speeches had been given from our esteemed leaders. Real power and achievements of the country were being shown. New opportunities were being promised. Flags were upraised. They told us how we are doing and pretended like we are the greatest. Champs are here!!! So indirectly we saw how a beautiful lie lools like.

I noticed so many changes in last couple of days. People changed their profile pictures, taglines and status. In couple of days everyone started feeling proud to be an Indian. Three colours got some attention. People sent messages for wishing each other the same, few didn't even know the exact value of it. Few people are not happy because this time it came on Sunday and so it wasted an extra holiday. 

Corporate world is not bad too; it tried to make highest money it could have done. Telecommunication companies are not giving even a single message for free on this day. Malls have given little extra offers on this day [which doesn't make any difference exactly] to earn little extra. Transport had demanded whatever they wanted. Movie channels were trying to show as more advertisements as they can. News channels were covering everything for increasing their TRP.  And everyone tried their best!!!

I usually keep listening from many of us that INDIA is not doing good, we have few pets like corruption, unemployment, poverty, population etc etc. , to which we love a lot. If I keep writing they are never going to end. India still has world's largest poor people in a single country, though we have largest rich people in a single country too. Sitting on the chair I am thinking who India is or who exactly is doing all this to us, who is exactly responsible for these all things?? 

The answer is as simple as it is - WE ARE INDIA. WE ARE DOING ALL THIS. WE ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR ALL OF THESE CIRCUMSTANCES. WE ARE DOING IT EVERYDAY!!!

Speaking something to someone for improving on something is the easiest thing someone can do, and that's what we do. Giving lecture's and advices on all these things is too easy. This is not someone special who is corrupted. This is the power of that chair on which we sit and work. That chair gives us power and our greed blinds us towards judgement.

So these are WE who are corrupted, Stop blaming others. If we really need some improvements in INDIA then keep in mind - we are INDIA. Improve own selves and India will improve. 

This is the time to bring change in India, in all of us. If we will not change then India will not changes!!!

This is the time to differentiate between COST and WORTH!!

I am IN are you??? 

JAI HIND....Happy Independence Day!

Writing ..An Amazing Feeling!!

Few days back i was wondering why people write things in blogs, in wordpress and in their own personal sites or dairies. 

Sharing is the natural behavior of human. We all got complicated brains. Our brain remains active 24 hours and does something something. Thinking capability of brain is the ultimate quality. Sometimes whatever we think we want to share without caring who the well going to read it. But writing it somewhere gives the ultimate relief and shows us that how closely we can make people understand our thoughts.

Blogging or writing is not just about getting appreciated for the work or the flow of words we have drawn. It is about writing something that you cannot keep in your brain. Thoughts which hit our mind each second, each place and just wanna come out of the brain.

It helps us a lot. There are two kind of people. Introvert and extrovert. Fortunately both loves writing, but both have different aims behind their writings and impact appears in the writing. Writing things gives us freedom to have a look from outside on what we are, what we exactly think or what we want. I am writing since long time as it gives me little room out of my busy life and helps me keep smiling. I don't wanna share my pains with anyone but at least i can write them and definitely one day when i will be very happy or will be out of some pain, i will visit my writings and i am sure i will laugh :)


Writing is a good thing, whoever is reading this post i would say read a lot and write a lot. Stay Happy.


Here is a BIG THANKS to Bloggers, Wordpress which made very easy for us to express our thoughts globally and definitely vice versa knowing thoughts of others as well unknowns is just feels amazing.Keep writing the good stuff :)


Have a Great day!

Gossip Time!!!..Relations!

Life always goes on with lots of learning’s and dense situations in undergoing relations.

In our life the most handle with care thing is our relations. Now day’s relations became the hottest theme to chitchat about.

Rajiv who saw his co-worker Ankit with one young woman at so many places assumed that she is his girlfriend. And it won't take even a single second to start gossip about this one. Whenever Ankit receive a call from anywhere and goes little out to talk clearly, gossip comes in. Whereas Ankit who is an innocent guy, didn’t even had little clue about it. Later after 2-3 days when Ankit got to be familiar about it, he was shocked because that girl was his cousin.....He thought...what a crap, at least think before you speak.

Now a day’s people are attracted about other's life that what’s going on there rather then focussing at their own life and then they speak anything about anyone’s life!!!...I in truth don't understand why they do the same. If you are really interested in that persons life and want to know what’s going on, Do some dare go and ask, lets see what happens.

If someone is roaming around with his/her opposite sex friend people would start rumours about them. The only thing I know is I don't understand why people speak if they don't understand things. Don't you have same relation with any of your friend?

Having tough time with all these. The only output I see from all these things is a single line ---

Everything looks funny unless it happens to YOU!!!

Birthday Blast :)

Just few seconds back the clock’s needle touched 12 and made me realised another year is added to my existence.

Speaking to my friend over phone & receiving birthday wishes. No expectations for any bolt from the blue and not even equipped. A sudden flash and 2 familiar faces entered in my room and that’s Dheeraj and his wife Iti with my roommate Aashish, Who brought all of the bliss for me to my birthday this year. Unexpected fortunes gives you most pleasure when you are not even ready for them. Gigantic Thanks to all these friends and you guys please don’t say NO.

They came up, shouted birthday wishes loudly and started giving me birthday bombs. And I bet they were real BOMBS, I still feel the explosionJ. Time to do little dance and cut cake. The dance was really amazing just prepared and executed in a well way. Director was DheerajJ. I cut the cake and they just polished my face with it. I can’t even make it up to open my eyes. Went and washed my face, second session started and that polish came again to meL. Captured so many pictures and videos. In between phone calls keep coming, and I was really having hard time to bring them reply.

Each time I thought it’s an end, it was just a pause. They polished my face 4 times with cake which entered in almost each of the hole available in my face. It’s my duty to share all my happiness with my friends and so I polished their faces too with that cakeJ. Iti acted very idly and concentrated her fingers on the camera. We sang the birthday song and finally ate one piece of cake. Time to open the gift and it was a Magnet Dart BoardJ. I wished they could have pasted someone’s picture on both sides of itJ which definitely would have brought the real contentment in targeting that boardJ. They asked me to have that board hanging at my chest to try some shotsL. With these all things finally the night surprise ended hereJ

At birthday being in office sucks but can’t help. Enjoyed day with real friends in office too. One of my close friends has provided me whole day Birthday support by keep communicating on E-Mail. That was the cutest thing I didn’t thought about. After completing the office shift the OnCall Birthday support was being provided by the same friend. That’s so sweet of you and that really makes my day. Special Thanks to YOUJ .

All is well that ends well. Phone calls are still coming. Ending the day and quoting the memories.

Once again thanks to all you for making this day unforgettable. 

Becoming Older...

Now a day I feel popping a sound…

Inside of my heart…outside of my heart…

Everyone says you became older now…

I stare at me and try feeling the change.

I think is it my changing taste?

Or is it my growing waist?

Is it the tensed nights?

Or is it my weak eyes?

And I feel, yes my laughs are getting fainter

I am coming serious and becoming a tenter

Forgetting the moments I lived…

Forgetting the moments I wanna live…

Things are just changed…doesn’t wanna believe…

But deep down my heart…

I feel a hidden child under umbrella of life

Who still wanna see a flying aeroplane

Who still love window seat at train

Who still wanna play hours & hours

Who still wanna steal chocolates from drawers

Who still wanna do some foolish thing

Who still have dream to be a king

And I feel the time has gone…

Its time to understand the real life,

Do some work or some strife…

Its time to understand the real day,

Time to enjoy in a different way…

Now a day I feel popping a sound…

Inside of my heart…outside of my heart…

Everyone says you became older now…

Miscellaneous Thoughts

Why in this cruel world we never get the thing we desire most strongly. May be the reason is god always loves crying faces and falling tears. May be god always wanna be more and more powerful. He makes a person to cry, so people should come to him and pray something they desire, which increases the power of god. But god need to understand the more tears will come outside the more eyes will get dry and then there will be nothing named hope, wishes and happiness. And if he can not understand this then he does not deserved to be the GOD. May be god will be more happy that time. Wishing God to have the sad world to rule, stay happy and to be more powerful.  

The only thing we need to learn in our life is how to stay happy while you have nothing to stay happy or you have everything to stay happy.

The only thing which is constant in our whole life is Change. The sooner we will learn to accept changes the sooner we will learn to stay happy. So go ahead and accept the changes happily.

The only thing which will never leave us alone is our loneliness. People say that loneliness is the best friend too. So whenever you feel sad or hurt don’t share it with anyone just feel it when you are alone, May be it will be painful but it will lead you towards success and happiness.

Worthless Emotions... :( :(

Another post....reasonably emotive...But contains bottomless factual sense.....


Few days back I received a forwarded mail which brought couple of tears in my eyes [As am emotional, it happens usually]


The mail was very sensible towards life. Where a man bought a new Ferrari, parked it at his home and everyone in his family was very happy about it, especially his 10 years old daughter. Next Sunday morning when he was washing his car, he noticed his daughter was doing something on the bonnet. He went there and saw she was scratching on it with a sharp rock. In a single moment man became so heated and slapped her very hardly 2-3 times. She started crying and went inside the home. Next day she was suffering from fever and required to be hospitalized. While taking her to hospital, he just noticed scratches made by her on the bonnet. And what she was trying to do was to write "I LOVE YOU DAD"...His head was spinning and heart was paining. But he didn't know why he became so angry that time!! Don't know what much is worthy.

Few days back one of my closest friends came at Bangalore for some official purpose and stayed with me. Days with him were quite good. I have an earphone which came as free with my laptop, in actual costs Rs 850. That is my favourite one and I just love the harmony comes out of it and the 'BASS' it produces. It gives me a different feeling whenever I use that one. Or in simple words I just LOVE that. One fine morning he asked me weather he can use it with his cell and I happily replied - yes you can. He took it to his office. When he returned from the office, he asked me he need to tell me something but I have to make sure first that I will not be angry OR will not ask anything to him. I assured him the same and he told that he just lost rubber cover [which fits outs in the ears] for one of the speaker somewhere. A short and sudden anger came up in my mind but next second I thought why I am getting so angry on this small thing. It won't cost me more than 5 or 10 Rs OR any how not more then my friendship with him. A smile came up at my face and I said not a problem man I have more sphere once.

A guy sitting in the cafe with one of his close female friend, Chatting, gossiping and kidding on different things. Eating tasty things to keep stomach and Tung silent. The girl bought some chips and was not ready to share that. Guy asked 2-3 times but she suggested to go and buy another one for own self. An idea came in the mind; guy took her phone and asked for ransom as chips to return the phone back. As she loves her phone too much, she will easily share chips now. INSTEAD the expectations, she said to give the phone back to her. Twice the time guy said no phone until unless chips are there for me. And the third time he noticed some different face expressions at her face and felt anger is coming. Before any explosion comes he returned the phone quickly. And after returning the phone he was thinking, if he had kept the phone for two more seconds definitely something was going to happen here. Question came in mind was what was worthy? And yes definitely he will not pick her phone again!! :( At least till the time he remembers those face expressions and anger in those eyes.

All three examples say the only thing and that is worthiness of emotions. People doing the same everyday in different ways with different people and never realize but the sufferer remember it always. Especially if sufferer is emotional, You just spoiled your relation, You are gone. In simple words 'IT HURTS'.

The post gives a simple message, just feel it. Things are not that worthy as RELATIONS, PEOPLE and EMOTIONS, Reason is simple you can buy things again. 

JUST FEEL THE ESSENCE AND SOUL OF THE POST..............TAKE CARE

Dil to bachha hai ji --- Happy Holi

Well its Sunday today But don't know what’s exceptional is today I woke up at 9 AM (Which is very odd) and unaccompanied at the room. Just lying at the bed, having a closer look at the wretched situation of the room and a rapid thought which ignited the force, made faster the body is Lets make the room spotless today. I took the broom and after putting a great effort it seems pretty good. I could see lots of died cockroaches finally taking their place to the dustbin, May god bless their soul. Still I sense something is missing ;)...So finally I took mop and wiped the whole flat and yeah....this is what hard work results, its better now. It is time to take bath.

Well Well Well its Sunday today  and I can take as much time as I want while bathing so lets take shower today with all fun of shampoos and pears :D And if I have done this much then what’s wrong with doing POOJA as well? It took me 20 minutes to give a try to make the God happy. After this superb schedule which came after so much of time period its time to take some rest now (I am fatal tired).

Again a sudden thought which fills the body with energy is that I have not deposited our electricity bill yet :( last date was yesterday and they may cut your light any time. So getup lets go and deposit the bill first. Well today the air is fresh and I can feel a new energy in me and looking at the wardrobe what to wear and I can see damm new jeans untouched. How can I do this with the jeans, it is untouched??...Lets give it a opening :) And yeah we are geared up now. Take your wallet; Keep your phone and o yes do not forget to take your new iPod as way is long and your have to walk. And harmony starts.

Finally paid my Vodafone bill as well as bill for electricity, God knows what does gonna come to pass with the light now. An incoming call at my phone, One of my college friend is calling, asked me lets meet at CCD in 10 minutes, All friends are there only and we will have a gossip gathering. CCD is the place where we generally meet. Hmmm...So it gonna go a good day today :)

With a musical walk reaching to CCD with a busy thinking brain, reached CCD got 3 seconds to have a look at my friends. All faces coloured with different shades, so many hands reaching towards my face and head, filled with different coloured gulaal, Before I understand the whole situation a strong voice penetrating my earphones & ears enters in my brain "HOLI HAiiiii" and just after that voice so many hands didn't took so much of time to rub and fill my face, hair, neck, back, chest and specially nose & ears with colour. Few seconds and its done. Now so many smiling faces hugging me, wishing me Happy Holi......Yeah, now I perfectly know what happened just few seconds back. Standing in front of them, Staring at my new jeans and thinking about one clean face is now coloured and added to their group....Hahaha...switching off the iPod, taking care of wallet and mobile. WHAT A DAY!!!!

Well I am already coloured and there is no harm to take some revenge and enjoy the festival of colours. Now we were 13 friends there, going here and there to other friends, seniors and colleagues. Here in the Karnataka Where they do not celebrate much of this festival, All over the streets people were just staring us like we are victims of some just happened disaster. People were telling their children to see us and take an example out of us that how bad things happen :)

The last thought which came in my mind was, I was never ready for such a surprise and if they might had asked me before colouring me, so may be I might not had given the permission. Because I think we are no more to enjoy and we don't take these festivals very seriously, thinks these are waste of time and money. And we are much older now; we should not be in these stupid things.

Though all these things all the youth have in the mind but those few moments will let you learn how to enjoy the life, how to make it colourful. Life is not to live just silently, just make some laugh, some noise and learn to live the moments. And that's what I am feeling it doesn't matter how older we are, how much responsibilities we have, how busy we are, how happy we are, we always have some funned desires in the heart, which we don't express due to the pressure of life.....But Whatever..."DIL TO BACHHA HAI JI" ....Accept it and live the life :)

Cheers and Happy Holi !!!!

Tommorrow again i have to play Holi with my office friends...Sleeping with the same thought!! :)

The Agony of life :(

We all can see the disparity between India and other English countries. The difference in ethnicity, work, maturity, development, growth and intensification.

Few time back i was thinking why we are lacking and why we are so lethargic(Indians are indolent). If you evaluate the the man power, no one could ever dare to even stand against us. The only difference is lack of desperation, dedication, concentration and energy. We are misplacing it!! And why?? No one bothers about it :)

I am working in a multinational company, where i need to communicate with US guys and need to work accordingly. And somehow a little obsession always shoots my intellect that creates a bigger difference in the picture of performance and that is encouragement, appreciation and quality to adore someone's work. A man went to US for few days and his work delivery got doubled, now he was ready to accept any work any time with a real smile. What made him that brand, vigorous and full of life.

The thing which i noticed and that man noticed was the appreciation which he received for his each and every activity. While working if you get few good words that esteems your work, admire your efforts and make you think that you are really doing good work and keep the good work up. Those few words will make you do more work with more devotion and desperation. Because the more you work, people will adore you more and that's what a human being is "GREEDY". It will fill you with energy. Just two positive encouraging  appreciative words!!!

One of my female friend working at a massive giant of IT sector, She works for at least 8 hours a day (Here i am talking about hour she works, not how many hour she stays in office) and At the end of the day her manager says hey you didn't do this one and you have to complete this one also, take this work also. Hey Man!! we are human, not machine!! How she will accumulate more liveliness to execute more work while she knows the criticism would be on its way by the superior. And here comes the INDIA!!! Outcome is straight, she is doing work because company is paying for that, not because she wish to do. If her manager will appreciate her work even a single time a day, i know the variation would be huge or more then that!

It takes only a moment to appreciate or adore someone's work but it really makes a significant difference in the quality and quantity of the work.

SO GUYS START ADORING THE PEOPLE AND THEIR WORK!!! EVERYONE JUST LOVE IT :).....And you could feel the disparity :)

Where is the true Love???

It is 11 PM and i just reached at home. I have something in my mind, which i am thinking and noticing from long time. Just read the below written things and try to understand, i hope anyone can analyse.

Suppose a person is in love and talking to his/her partner on phone and suddenly a call comes at cell, which would be at waiting state that time but that guy/girl ignores the call because s/he thinks that his/her parter will not feel bad as they are in flow of chats!!!

Just check the opposite situation one is talking on phone to his/her home and sees a call waiting on the cell of his/her partner. What would be the immediate action? Thar guy/girl will ask to home that one call is on wait and will be calling you just after few minutes. And that few minutes never ends!!!

Just check another situation..A boy talking to his mom and mom who loves her son so much, asking again and again the same thing about food that please eat this and this, do not forget and all. Finally that guy got irritated and started shouting on the mom, that i alone can take care of myself and after shouting cuts the call. And his mood is down now. At the same time he calls his girlfriend and started chats very politely and calmly, now in the last of the call the girlfriend says the same thing about food what his mom was saying But now scenario is different he listens everything and say the same good things for her to have good food. Now his mood is up and he thinks yeah in this world at least 1 girl cares for me.



Now everyone could feel the difference!! I am just wondering which one is the true love?? A mom who has taken care of the child for at least 20 years or a girl to whom he has spent some nice hours!! And what if going ahead that girl dumps the guy?? we always think about the heart of our partner, but what about our parents. Our parents loves us more then we can think. Just feel the meaning of the words written above, i hope i could make some difference.

Can't ignore the happenings by which everyone is surrounded by, Just feel the love in a right direction. Sleeping with the same thought.

Journey to home -- Part 3 :) :D :D

So am back with the last part of my most memorable journey....You may not find it much interesting but this is what which i found....and i could easily en light how much my family loves me!!!.....

So finally after having sweet and sour experience in journey from Bangalore to Alwar, finally i was standing at my native, just 2 Kms away from my home. Three riksha's were there but all denied to go towards my home, don't know why?, no one was accepting even double rent too. I just stared my watch and it was the time when i could not expect any other thing except riksha, to go to my home. Once i thought let's travel it by my own, but i had luggage :( Final thoguht came in my mind to call some one from my home to pick me up, but that will screw my surprise!!! What to do??? still thinking and suddenly i saw a tempo coming on the way(which you may not find often) but it was in worst condition and already extra burdened with passenger's. Anyhow i adjusted my suitcase inside tempo and he told me to get hanged on the back side(It is usual there) and so i did.

Finally i reached at Hanuman temple just few meters apart from my home So i thought this is the right time to call at home and start the game. My elder brother's shop is attached to my home and is the first stop for those who are coming to my home. So when i entered there, my brother got shocked,he said- hey how come here? you were supposed to be here at 4th of Jan (previously i told, i will be there at 4th Jan). I just smiled. I could see those glittering eyes :) and happiness in those eyes, i told him not to spread the word. Then i made a call to my elder sis, she said what i am doing and i told i am at room and surfing internet, suddenly i gave my cell to my bro to talk. My sister was wondering, how it is possible, i told i was just testing this recently launched technology by which we could connect a call to anyone without any extra cost :) ....And OMG she believed. Then i thought now i have to go inside of house.

At the ground floor i directly entered to my elder brother's room, where his wife was alone. She don't know me much as i am not at home since she married and came here. She just saw me and got scared that who is this crazy guy directly entering in her room and even my elder bro is not stopping me. She was deadly scared and trying to recognize me, finally when i smiled she said(very loudly) OOOOOO......AAAAPP Hoooooo......i thought Hooray ....at least finally she recognized me :) I could see lots of question marks at her face..hehe :)

That loud voice reached till first floor and my younger sis just stared down from first floor. The moment she saw me.....she started running here and there, just confused whom to tell first...Like a cat....hehehe....it was so funny, the way she acted... My laughs were at peak. Finally she announced to my grand mom first that i am here.I went to my grand mom and she hugged me for next 2 minutes and started raining blessings, this was the moment when i can't stop my tears!!..She was very excited :)

Now every one except my parents knew that i am here, where they were not here at the home. After 10 mins i got to know that my dad came from market, i went to him to take the blessings,my dad(who's eyes are so weak) was adjusting his eye slashes to make the right picture of the guy standing in front of him and finally a broad smile came at their face :) ...They were so happy....because I was there...Yeah....i was very happy...those were some precious moments i could never forget in my whole life....And surprise was over...I am here in front of whole my family members, everyone was adoring me. Some people were unhappy because they have planned some surprise for me if i was coming at 4th of Jan....hehehe...But i am here, overlapping my idea at everyones :)......

All above i just tried to elaborate my feelings but i don't know...i am not able to do it exactly...Because some feelings could never be expressed by words :)

Journey to home ---- Part 2 :) :D :D

The name of this blog is lazybrains.blogspot.com and so i am....A bit lazy in writing, thinking and releasing posts...So am here to continue my jouney :)

After having a such experience in flight anyone could fall in thoughts of the just happened planned accident by god.I bet to say that time All izz Well :) As i come under the category of idiots. No one got the ability to stop time forever and enjoy it. After this experience i was thinking let's see what happens in bus and its Delhi (dil walo ka seher), anything is possible :) You might be thinking now that i might got another such experience in bus but it was completely different and especially no girl was there :)

After coming out of airport i planned to rent an auto till Dhoula kuan and did the same. i reached dhoula kuan in 30 mins. When i come out of auto and pulling my luggage out of that auto i noticed a girl standing there was staring at me but i was in no mood to entertain myself again!!!! I ignored and had a look all around i could see almost all the villagers there waiting for their buses. i could see some buses coming for different places fully loaded, where there is no place for new passenger's and was wondering would i be able to secure a seat. There were unbelievable over bridges like they are participating in a contest of making the most critical zig-zag rounded lines over the page of earth and still they were trying to make it more harder and complicated But it was really impressive, thanks to civil engineer's.

I was amused and all of a sudden i saw a bus coming for the destination i was targeted to, so i collected all of my luggage and anyhow started trying to get into the bus. The crowd made me feel pressure at each inch of my body and that pressure just thrown me inside of that bus. But aaila!!!!!!! Bus to shuru hote hi khatm !!! :(....hahaha.....There was no place for moving ahead and still i could listen the voice of conductor - ALwar Alwar Alwar.....Bot jegeh hai ..aa jao aa jao...I just stared him for once and then thought how to adjust my luggage as i had too much :(

Finally his eyes fallen on me,he signaled me to go inside the driver cabin and thanks to that driver who allowed me to sit beside him on gear box where as he refused for other people. Now i could feel the fire under me ...hehehe And journey started.

I could see how people were staring at me and suddenly my phone rang i talked in english because it was required in that call. Now people were staring me like i am a criminal and i had done any crime. Some one said-- kaha se aae ho bhaiya?? i said-Bangalore. that guy- padai karte ho? me- nhi nokri karte hai...another gay- arree ee badi party hain!!!! angraji me kaam karte hai!!! I was feeling quite uncomfortable but can't help. And suddenly a sardaar ji entered over there and started pushing himself inside the cabin. Driver-sardar ji bahar hi raho. Sardar ji-arre hum b gear box pe adjust ho jaenge and he sat beside me!!! Now all people started talking and there topic was private vs goverment sector. They were literally ****ing private companies and for each talk asking what was my opinion, if i will say something, they will start criticism. I could feel the winterzz and on that don't know what they were trying to do with me!!!! God please save me!!! i was begging.

Bus stoped at a stop some seats got vacant at back side and i changed my place without loosing even a single moment.Now i am at window seat, none to disturb, none to stare and none to ask me silly questions. I could now fall in dreams of my getting executed plan of surprising journey towards my native. I could feel the warmness in that cold wind. I purchased some ground nuts and remaining journey got passed away in a silent way. Bus reached at 8:30 to alwar and now it was the most awaited time for me :) ...Now i had to go to home and have a fantastic experience over there.....

......To be continued :) :P :D

Journey to home ---- Part 1 :) :D :D

Hey friends literally i don't have words how the exact experience was because i can feel the warmness of it and every time when you feel something so deep in your heart, you can't build it with words ...Same here :)

And the post is quite long, might be boring for you but every time am gonna read this post, i believe i will be lost in this...

So i was going to my home after 7 typical months. Most different and unusual thing about this journey was, i was going to surprise my family.

So i have started my journey at 8AM early Morning. Got into volvo where i was alone running towards airport, actually i was the only passenger in that bus so i started reading a novel. Bus was going towards airport and at next stop a cute looking girl entered at our bus, Overburdened with her luggage. She wanted to put her that huge suitcase at the luggage carrier which was approx 2 feet higher by footpoint. She tried 2 times to pull that suitcase till 2 feet higher but we all know girls and their power, So she failed twice. And finally she looked at me with some hope and i helped her to pull and put her suitcase on the carrier. She gifted me a pretty smile, said thanks and took her seat. As we all know boys, if some girl will give them a pretty smile they will think that girl is fallen is love with them. hehehe...... I stared at her twice and thrice but i didn't got any positive sign or expression at her face, So i thought yaar ladkia aisi hi hoti hai, leave her now.

I again started reading novel. Time went fine, we reached at airport at 10 and then i went to CCD to have something and keep my stomach silent. Then check-in was started, i went for check-in and it was quite awesome to saw that girl again, just in front of me in king-fisher's queue. Yeahh men, We were going to have same flight. I just gave a light comment to her if she need some more help with her suitcase(boys always do) and she gave that pretty smile again.

She got her boarding pass and it was my turn now. That executive asked me if i have some problem with window seat, i said everyone just loves it and i would be pleased if you'll give me that. He told me that not everyone loves it, that previous girl(Same girl) had refused it. I thought she might be scared of seeing at earth from that much hight but whatever!!! i am not gonna have any talk with her now.

Now everyone have to wait till boarding to get started, i saw her there sitting idle on the chair, i ignored her and set on a chair quite far from her and started doing some crap work on laptop. After some time boarding started, i purchased some chocolates from a shop and went to get boarded. In between all of this she was lost somewhere. Finally i entered into Kingfisher-3219, Kind air hostess told me where my seat was and i was all set at my favorite window seat. I was seeing all incoming passengers ans just having a thought who will be my neighbour. I wished to god for few people(obviously girls) to make them my neighbour while they were entering into flight but my bad luck all of those passed away.

All of a sudden i saw a black,fat,bad looking girl and i started praying strongly to god, hey god please don't let her be, don't let her be , don't let her be my neighbour. But destiny never changes, She was confidently coming towards my row and bullshit men, she set beside me, So no more expectations now, i started looking out of window(at least i had window, was happy about it).

If fortune knocks your door when you are hopeless, you can't describe that feeling, Same happened to me. I saw that pretty girl again, entering in, she was looking quite fresh(might washed her face, and so she was lost) and what is this man, she was coming towards our row only, i though she might got third seat. And i made a picture, Me at first seat, she at third and that black,fat girl in between us....ohhh what the crap yaaar. But actual twist came up, when she said that black,fat girl that if she was sure that she have same seat. That black girl checked her boarding pass again and ooops there was a mistake, mistakenly she set at forth row, she was in third row middle seat. Now she have to leave this seat for that pretty girl and happened the same. Now picture was changed me at window seat and that pretty girl was my neighbour. My cheeks were blushing, i was happy and i thought - No one can change your destiny, you are gonna get a good journey, my heart was doing balle balle.

Now i had to start the talk, i offered her if she wanted to sit at window seat. She said NO, i am afraid of hight and we started talking each other. All of a sudden another twist happened, a foreigner lady interrupted us and asked me if i was sure that i had the same seat, i confidently told her "YES" and she went back to air hostess. Now I checked my boarding pass again just to confirm about seat but what the f**k yaar, i did the same mistake as black lady. I was at the 3rd row,window seat(again i had to sit with that fat lady).....I again thought - No one can change your destiny and suddenly i laughed at myself. Now it was all set for everyone, i was sitting with that fat girl and that foreigner lady was sitting with that pretty girl. My sweet dreams were broken and destiny just played with me. And after that i had a silent journey, i thought to have some talk with that pretty girl after landing. At 2:30 flight got landed, all passengers came at air-port and she was missing. I waited for 10 more mins to have a good sight but she was disappeared and all over......... :( :(

You Can't Help Your Destiny :)