जिन्दा हो तुम..!!

एक एहसास के अभी जिन्दा हो तुम
कभी इस एहसास को एहसास  करने का वक़्त निकालो यारों
कि छोड़ कर तुम भागना आज
कुछ अधूरी रह गई ख्वाइशों पर नज़र डालो यारों
आँखें बंद करके एक लम्हा
जरा इस वक़्त कि रफ़्तार तो पहचानो यारों

कैसा है ये सफ़र जिंदगी का
कि चल रहा है वक़्त उसी रफ़्तार से
पर ना जाने जिंदगी थम सी गई है कहीं

जीने की खातिर खुदको रोज़ मार देते हैं
दिल में बसें अरमानों को मज़ाक में टाल देते हैं
जीने कि उम्र में टूट रहें  हैं हम
धड़कता दिल सुनके याद आता है कि जिन्दा हैं हम

रात के अंधेरो में जब कुछ यादों को बटोरा
एहसास हुआ कि कितने वक़्त से रोये नहीं
नींद तो रोज़ आ जाती है लेकिन
ना जाने कितने वक़्त से सोये नहीं

अधूरे ख्वाब अधूरी चाहत
सब अधूरा ही रह  जाएगा
निकल जाएगा ये वक़्त यूँ ही कश्मकश में
सब वक़्त यूँ ही गवां देने से पहले

एक एहसास के अभी जिन्दा हो तुम
कभी इस एहसास को एहसास करने का वक़्त निकालो यारों
कि छोड़ कर तुम भागना आज
कुछ अधूरी रह गई ख्वाइशों पर नज़र डालो यारों

जिंदगी आजकल...

Had written this poem long back, posting it here today ...

लेकर चले थे जो एक छोटी सी ख्वाइश घर से
ना जाने कितनी दूर आ गए हैं
हो चुकी ना जाने कितनी ख्वाइशे पूरी
फिर भी ना जाने क्यों है जिंदगी अधूरी

अनजानों के साथ अनजानी राह पर चलते
ना जाने अपने कब अनजान हो गए
भागते रहे हम दूर इतना कि
अपने ही घर में मेहमान हो गए

हँसते हैं मुस्कुराते हैं और इश्क भी जताते हैं
फिर भी न जाने क्यों अपने को तनहा ही पाते हैं
कोई सुन न ले रात में ये सिसकिया हमारी
कुछ इसलिए भी हम रात जाग कर बिताते हैं

चलते जा रहे हैं हम दूर पर मंजिल नजर आती नहीं
खरीदे हुए सामानों से मन तो बहलता है पर ख़ुशी नजर आती नहीं
देखते हैं पुरानी यादो को अक्सर
पर याद क्यों अब रुलाती नहीं

मन करता है की जा सकू फिर से वापस
ले सकू सुकून  की एक नींद यू दादी की गोद में
रो सकू जी भर के जहाँ
और बता सकू की क्यों रोया हूँ मैं

पर फंस गया हूँ जिंदगी में इस खातिर
की बस अब यही सब सोचता हूँ मैं
रोज सोते वक़्त आँखों से आते पानी को
ना टूट जाने के डर से पोंछता हु मैं

ना जाने हर रात को बैचैन सा
यही सब सोचता हु मैं ॥

Sometimes i wish...

Well this poem is written for my grandma who is no more with us for more then a year now. Sometimes missing someone makes them realize the true value of a person. 


Sometimes i wish...
You were never gone
So far from this world
Giving tears in so many eyes
Making them alone forever

Sometimes i wish...
You were still here
Laughing with all of us in good times and bad
Scolding us with love as the way you used to do
Telling me how much you love to me

Sometimes i wish...
I could show the girl i chosen
The one you always asked me for
And can see shine in your eyes
And a proudy yes to approve the girl

Sometimes i wish...
To feel you back in life for real
And not just in dreams you come
To talk with you for hours and hours
To feel the love you gave us your whole life

Sometimes i wish...
That i could speak to you for one more time
Just one last time
To hug you tight and take blessings from you
To tell you how much i love you
And how much you meant to me

Sometimes i wish...
I could roll time back
Not for good things
Not for bad things
But just for you.
Just for you.

जिंदगी |

आज बैठ कर सोचा की जिंदगी क्या है
चंद कागज के टुकडों के लिए दिन रात खटकना
या फिर किसी की याद में हर समय तड़पना
किसी के प्यार को पानी की ख्वाइश
या अपने मुक्कद्दर को दिन भर परखना

किसी की लिए किसी की किलकारी
किसी के लिए बस दाना और पानी
कोई बन बैठा है सरताज जिंदगी का
तो कहीं कोई है मोहताज़ जिंदगी का

कहीं चमचमाती हुई अय्य्याश जिंदगी
कहीं भूखी बिलखती अधनंगी जिंदगी
लक्ष्यहीन सी चलती उदास जिंदगी
चुलबुले पलों वाली बदमाश जिंदगी

ले चल कहीं उदा के जहाँ जी सकू तुझे
कुछ खोने के दर से रो सकू जहाँ
दुनिया क हर शख्स से होकर बेखबर
पानी की लहेरो से मिल सकू जहाँ

ना शिकायत हो जहाँ किसी से
ना किसी को कुछ देने की आशाए
बस ले चल कहीं उदा के जहाँ जी सकू तुझे
ए सुनहरे पंखो वाली अनजान जिंदगी ।।
 

जाम का अहसास |

हर जाम के साथ याद जो तेरी आती है

हँसते हुए चेहरे को तनहा कर जाती है

दिल को हलक तक खींच कर 

हर धड़कन का अहसास करा जाती है

कभी सूने चेहरे को हँसा जाती है

कभी खुशिओ में भी रुला जाती है

कभी जाम का स्वाद भुला जाती है

कभी आम को भी कड़वा बना जाती है

कभी ख्वाबों में सजाई थी जिनकी तस्वीर

छुप के उसी तस्वीर को आज निहारा करते हैं

आ जाए अगर वो सामने फिर से 

ना जाने क्यों हम उनसे किनारा करते हैं

कहेते हैं किस्मत वाले वो जिन्हें

प्यार नसीब होता है

नसीब तो उनका होता है

जिनका प्यार उनके करीब होता है

यूँ ही उम्र निकल जाएगी उनकी यादो में 

कुछ अधूरे सपनों और अध्पले  अहसासों में 

निकलेगी हर रात अब

यूँ ही जाम ले हाथो में...यूँ ही जाम ले हाथो में ||

Never be in love!!!

When each breath is too heavy to take
When each beat in your heart gives you unbearable pain
When you get endless tears even when you smile
when you start crying suddenly with just a memory of someone
when you can sit alone for hours and days
when all you can think about is her
When death looks simpler then being not with her
When you start believing that god doesn't exist

You are in deep love with some one

All you want is happiness for her
All you want to be with her
All you want to live your life for her
All you want is the love of you life

But

All you can have are endless nights
Just few memories of the time you spent together
All you can have is to live in this fake world
With the one you never loved and without the one you loved

Just do everything in life... Just never be in Love!! Never be!!

Love you...

Each day i open my eyes

Each day i close my eyes

All i can think about is you

In each blink of my eyes

All i can see is you...Smiling at me as you always do

I wanna make you happy

I wanna make you feel the love of you life

Which will never fade

Doesn't matter how old you grow, or how old i grow

Sometimes in life you might feel a little space between us

A little shout or a little fight

I could be wrong sometimes

Or you could also be

But all i know is you love me and i love you

You trust me and i trust you

And so nothing in this world will keep us apart

Even there is, i know we will shut that off

Even though there is nothing in this world that lasts forever

But there is love which breaks the chain

A lots of love for you my dear

A lots of love for you

I love you and will always do ...

Missing you :(

There are times when i miss you a lot
I remember all the time i spent with you
When i close my eyes and see you face smiling at me
Afraid of opening my eyes as i know you would not be there

If you think i don't love you
Or i don't have time for you
Someday when no is around
Meet my pillow which carries a lot of secrets

I ran for you, I fought for you
And finally when i reached to you
All i saw is your back
Saying me a little word "BYE"

Even though i smile a lot
Sometimes my heart aches too
Even though i never complain anything
But i could have complains too

I wish you were here to talk with me
To understand me, To make me stop crying
To hug me and Make me feel
That you will never leave me alone EVER!! :(

Happy New Year :)

Years come and years go
short spans of time lined in row
one ends and another begins
All we do is look back and see what went wrong
Keep new resolutions for another year

As life goes on with seconds and breaths
All we know we have today...
to live to celebrate to fall in love to cheer
to earn to spend to fight to hate to cry

May you live all of your today with all you want today for another year and year
Happy New Year to all my readers and friends. Keep smiling and stay tuned.

letsbuy.com review

UPDATE:
Received a call from letsbuy and expressed deep apologies and said they are working on these kind of issues.
I ordered hard disk and it came to me within 3 days. :)


Hi Friends,

This blog was not originally started for any kind of product or service review but recently i had an exclusive experience which forced me to write this review.

letsbuy providing a whole lot of discounts which attracts customer soon. So i was attracted to the deal to camera nikon d3100. Even after reading a lot of negative review's about letsbuy somehow i dared to place an order and take risk.

I ordered nikon d3100 from letsbuy,com on 20th sept 2011 got a good discount and a lots of free things. The order was dispatched on 21st sept by safe-express courier and i thought i should reach to me by 24th of sept as letsbuy say they will deliver it within 2-4 days. When i did not receive the product i called letsbuy customer care (which is the worst  customer care by the way ) and they told me that one of the free item tripod was missing in the package so they are sending it with another courier and the original courier i would receive by EOD which didn't happen.

On 27th i received tripod which was the free item but still the main item (shipped on 21st) was missing and i had no idea where it is. I called customer care and they said i would receive it by EOD if not they will escalate it to logistic department. I waited whole day and i was supposed to get a call from letsbuy which didn't happen anyway. I twittered, updated on facebook even sent mail with whole information to customercare@letsbuy.com and ceo@letsbuy.com to let them know the issue. But no one replied.

On 28th i called them again in the morning and a girl named mansi said i would be receiving my product by EOD by anyhow. No updates on this till eve and i had to call them again as letsbuy people will never ever call you, they might give miss call to you though!! Call was picked up by another girl named reshma and she gave me a lot of excuses without even knowing what exactly going on with the product. When i asked to talk to supervisor i was put on hold for 20 mins and i had to cut the call because i wasn't seeing a silver line there.

I called customercare again in morning of 29th which was the 8th day since the order was shipped and i don't know where it was, this time someone named nitin picked my call after a lot of arguments finally he made me talk to his supervisor named Amit ( i am not sure he was the real supervisor), Amit promised me that the issue has already been escalated to logistics team and by EOD i would receive my product.

I think all the customer care executive in letsbuy are being told that they have to tell the customer that customer would receive the product EOD, without even knowing what is happening with the product and when  it is going to get delivered actually.

Anyway i didn't had faith in the promises of letsbuy that they are going to deliver it by EOD of 29th, as they promised me the same thing on 27th and 28th also. Finally i started tracking the courier by myself. i called 10-11 times to the Bangalore office of safe-express but no one picked my call. I called head office of safe express for karnataka and he was a nice guy who picked my call, gave me cell number of the responsible person and his manager's too in case he don't respond!.


I talked with that guy which was again a nice guy and tracked my shipment for me immediately and told that it is already out for delivery and stuck because the vehicle is punctured.  I asked him if someone from letsbuy followed up on this product with safe-express??? And ans was NO!!  So that kind of service letsbuy provide, they never did any followup and made all false promised or just can say fooled their customer.


In between i checked the status of my shipment in safe-express site and it was as follows -

Now here i am not able to understand why it was updated as Delivery attempt unsuccessful where i was available whole day and i didn't even got a single call!!!

I spent more then rs 100 in calling letsbuy!!. Anyway finally i asked safe-express that i myself will pick the product you just tell me where it is, and so i picked it by myself and received the product.


It was a very irritating, frustrating experience for me to shop on letsbuy. whose customer care is very irresponsible and they don't care what their customer think about them. You just search on the internet and it is full of such experience from letsbuy.

Anyway letsbuy is good as it provides good discount and good deals but only if you can take such above pain and if you can follow up with them on each stage. If you are daring enough to get headache for your product you are welcome to letsbuy :)

Otherwise lets not try letsbuy ( Specially expensive products).!!!

It's you :)

When i came to you

i felt the shelter

i felt the rest

i found the peace

I find no other

Who can fill in your shoes

No money no person nothing else

And the best thing i know is

You are always with me

Doesn’t matter

How far i am

How poor i am

Or how sick i am

I know i can always count on you

It's you who loved me since you saw me

It’s you to whom i owe my whole life

It’s you

"My family" :)

एक तस्वीर

आज आइना देखा तो एक तस्वीर नजर आई 

एक अनजाना चेहरा जो कभी जाना पहचाना सा था

वो रास्ते जिन पर कभी चलने का सोचा ही नहीं 

आज उन रास्तो से क्यूँ दोस्ताना सा था

जूठे चेहरों से भरी धुंधली सी जिंदगी 

हर दर्द पर यूँ हंसती हुई जिंदगी 

हर पल जब यूँ बोझिल सा हो उठा 

याद आया की ये इंसान भी कभी मस्ताना सा था 

Too scared and will always be…

I don't know what I felt

I don’t know why my heart melts

The first site of yours

Made my heartbeat crazy

And I got stuck with my life

Don’t know how come you meant everything to me

All it takes is hearing your name… a picture of yours

To make me fall in love again and again

To keep dreaming about you …about us

You talked to me was just a fluke

Loneliness with a broken heart was just a sequence

My tears never make much sound or you were too far to hear

Don’t know how I could continue

 How could I get the new life

Seeing you remind me you aren’t mine

But I will wipe you out of my heart

Trying this is the best I can

I will open my eyes again

Open my mind again

A new smile on my face

Just can’t open my heart again

Because I am too scared and will always be…

यही जिंदगी है ....

जब कुछ सपने यूँ झटके से टूटे

जो थे अपने जब वही निकले झूठे 

जब अरमानो की लाश को खुद आग दी

तब अहसास हुआ यही जिंदगी है

कभी दुसरो की खातिर कभी अपनों की खातिर

झूठी मुस्कराहट बिखेरते बिखेरते 

दिखा दर्पण जब एक दिन

अहसास आया यही जिंदगी है

बहुत हस लिए जब दूसरो पर 

खुदको जब देखा एक दिन 

और फूट फूट कर रोया

खुदको समझाया यही जिंदगी है

जब खूब दौड़ कर भी वो ना कर सके हासिल

जो पाना था बहुत पीछे रह गया

जहा देखने पर सक धुंधला नजर आता है

अहसास हुआ यही जिंदगी है

रोते हुए चेहरे पर जब पड़ी खुशिओ की चमक

पहली बार जिंदगी का अहसास लिया 

और खुशिया देने वाले ने जब कीमत मांग ली

अहसास हुआ यही जिंदगी है 

हर तरफ लगे हैं मेले ....

हर तरफ लगे हैं मेले 

बस खुशिओ का समां है

आज देखा हर तरफ

मेरा भारत जवा है

निकला जब लोगो का काफिला

तिरंगे को लेकर

आज देखा देशप्रेम का

असली जज्बा यहाँ है

ना जात पात का नाटक

ना दिलो में दूरिया हैं

आज देखो भारत की

सच्ची एकता यहाँ हैं

बीस साल बाद फिर से 

एक तूफ़ान आया है

विश्व-कप जीत कर भारत ने 

दुनिया भर में तिरंगा फेहराया है 

आज सारी रात बस जश्न की रात है

क्रिकेट का भगवान् सचिन हमारे साथ है

चलो मिल कर करते हैं जश्न

आज जश्न में पूरा वतन हमारे साथ है 

Why when i know all...

Why I wait for you, every time

Why I die, to hear your voice 

Why I always want to make u mine

When I know the truth, we are different like water and wine

I know all we will be never be one

I don’t know why this thought always comes

 I don’t know that I belong to you or not 

The only thing I will say forget me not

We will be friends till the end of life

That relation would be pure as divine

With filling each other's heart with beautiful smile J

एक अदनी सी जिंदगी ...

एक अदनी सी जिंदगी जिसमें हर और ख्वाहिशें कुचली जाती हैं

रौशनी की किरणें भी क्यों धकेल कर अँधेरे में ही ले जातीं हैं

जब होना न था तुम्हे पूरा तो क्यों तमन्ना जाग उठी

पल दो पल की खुशियाँ दे फिर दर्द की राग उठी

मुझे ऐ जिंदगी मेरा कुसूर बता दे

मोहब्बत न हो कभी इतना गुरूर दिला दे

या तो मुझे जीने ही न दे

या फिर ऐसे जीने की उसूल सिखा दे ||

I won't cry

When I see back I see it blank
The hope which was struggling is finally dead
Forgetting you so soon is very hard
To stop my tears there is no guard
But this time I won’t break
For my own sake ... I won’t cry

I would be happy if you were mine
Life would have been full of rhyme
But here I am alone
Just in sentence of my crime
But this time I won’t break
For my own sake ... I won’t cry

I lost you...

Yesterday night while seeing your pictures

I thought if I could hold you tight

Wanted real presence of yours

Which I could catch in my sight

A silent tear rolled out of my eyes

And I realised … I lost you

Regret is the only feeling which I feel everyday

Feelings which I have are not easy to say

The only thing I know I didn’t deserve this pain

I had something real which is flowing in my vein

My heart you took and broke it badly

Something which hurt me so deadly

I looked at your smiling face, tried out find out why

It was all I could do, to not to begin cry

While sleeping if look at the sky

I could make your picture and feel like cry

On bed I thought who is my best buddy?

Who do I love the most?

And I realised … I lost you

Feeling this much pain

Thought someone I could have

Who could feel me, make me laugh and smile

Walk with me for a longer mile

And I realised … I lost you

Death is the only way...

Seeing you going far from me..

Unexpressed pain...make me feel

I was never born to be loved..

Alone on the path

Just for sake of life

Unloved emotionless life just going on

Who will give everything just to quench the thirst of a real smile

The only wish of life which remained in heart

If you could ever understand my love

Even just for few moments

But the smile on your face

Makes me feel

You don’t need me…

And the time makes me realised…

That death is the only way…