क्यों आए तुम !!

जला के मैंने तुम्हारी आरजू , जिंदगी को अपनी दफ़न कर दिया 

हँसते मुस्कुराते चेहरे पर अपने, उदासी का कफ़न जड़ दिया 

अलग थे रास्ते अलग थी मंजिले 

फिर क्यों थोड़ी दूर भी साथ चले

वादा कर दिया जब हमने जिंदगी भर साथ निभाने के लिए 

तुम कहते हो की खेल रहे थे तुम हमे आजमानें के लिए 

बन गए हो ख्वाब बनकर सीने में इस कदर 

और चैन की नींद में हो तुम इन सबसे बेखबर

आज खुदको देखा आईने में तो एक अलग इंसान नज़र आ गया

ऐसा क्या नशा है तुम्हारा की मुझे ऐसा बना गया

मोहब्बत ही तो की कौनसा गुनाह कर दिया

बस गलती यही हुई की जो भी किया वो बेपनाह कर दिया

अब दिल चाहता है कहीं दूर चले जाने को

याद न आओ तुम कुछ ऐसा वक़्त बिताने को

जला के मैंने तुम्हारी आरजू , जिंदगी को अपनी दफ़न कर दिया 

हँसते मुस्कुराते चेहरे पर अपने, उदासी का कफ़न जड़ दिया ||

Cruelest Love .... :(

LOVE!! The most complex thing ever existed in this world. I tried to find almost everything about it. We worship love which teaches us how to live. The whole world you can see in her one smile. They are luckier who get it. Love makes people happy forever. J

And than there is another kind of love, the cruelest kind, the one which almost kills its victim and its called unrequited love. To which I know much deeper. I suppose I think about love more then anyone really should.

Most of the stories which we often see are about the people who fall in love with each other, but how about few others, those of them who fall in love alone!!! Victims of the one sided affair. They are the cursed of the loved ones. They are the loved ones walking wounded.

You loved someone, so deeply without any demand, with all your heart because you loved. But then time comes which makes you realize that it was no good. And then you think those were the worst years of your life, the worst birthdays, new years, and celebrations. The time you have been in love have been the darkest days of your life. All because you are cursed by being in love with the one who does not and will not love you back.

But still you think about her and dream about her. You think like - .

Why am I attracted to a person I know isn’t good but Every time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over. Oh god!! Just a sight of her, heart pounding, throat thickening, absolutely can’t swallow. You wanna forget everything but when she comes in front of you, you can’t resist, can’t control, you don’t know how and what happens to you. And you lose that argument with yourself that she is not for you, because you want to believe that you are wrong. Every time she does something that tells you she’s no good, you ignore it.

And then one day when you come across to your known reality, you feel like broken, flawless tears, you wanna go alone and alone, just out of this world, out of all relations. And it can actually ache in places that you didn’t know you had inside you. It doesn’t matter how many clothes you get or gyms you join, how many glasses of wine you drink, you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder where did you go wrong and how you could have misunderstood. And then you feel how ugly, useless you are. No one loves you, don’t even thinks about you.

Things end!!!

And how in the hell for that moment…you could think that you were that happy?? And sometimes you can even convince yourself …that she’ll see the light and show up at your door…And after all that … however long “all that” may be …you will go somewhere new… And you will meet people who will make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back…And all that fuzzy stuff…those years of your life that you wasted …that will eventually begin to fade…


Courtesy "The holiday"

My very first Kiss ...

Hi Friends,

Before you proceed with this poem I just wanted to let you know that this one is little different, you might not like the subject, content or whole drama. Go ahead at your own risk. JJJ

I remember that night, when you were with me

In that park under that tree

So Close to you feeling the heat

That sound which was too loud was my heart’s beat….

I lifted you up in my arms

Making you assure there will be no harm

When I slipped you slight and you hold me tight

I felt your breath and said it’s all right….

I heard your heart and felt the warmth

What I found was the aim of my birth

For the very first time the time stood still

Your soft skin which I could feel

Your real beauty which I could reveal

My ears were having sound of peal….

You put your hand on my thighs

 Came so closer and closed you eyes

I felt your breath and your lips

It was you pouring your own nips….

My body shuddered out of my choice

I felt the whisper of your warm voice

We wanted it for so long

It made our feelings truly strong….

I leaned on you and felt the touch

This was the time I loved you so much

I leaned back tried to resist

But these were my lips just wanted to be kissed….

You held me tight all through night

Knowing the fact it is not right

I felt complete and full of bliss

It was the memorable my very first Kiss….

जाने अनजाने में ...

जाने अनजाने में तुझसे प्यार करता रहा

घडी दर घडी तेरा इंतज़ार करता रहा

झूठे वादों में तेरे जिंदगी बिता दी

क्यूँ सब जान कर भी ऐतबार करता रहा

जानता हूँ की तू नही होगी कभी मेरी 

फिर क्यूँ बार बार तुझसे इकरार करता रहा

सुना है मिलती है ख़ुशी उम्मीद छूट जाने क बाद

उम्मीद छोड़ने की कोशिश मैं बार बार करता रहा

न दिया तुमने जवाब एक बार भी

फिर क्यूँ मैं बार बार वही सवाल करता रहा

अभी सूखे नहीं थे पुराने जख्म भी 

की मैं बार बार नए घाव करता रहा

जुदा हैं हम जुदा हो तुम

सब समझ कर भी मैं क्यों नादान बनता रहा 

क्यूँ सब जान कर भी तुझसे प्यार करता रहा||

कुछ पता नहीं....

लडखडा के चल दिए यू सुनसान सडको पर
मंजिल है कहाँ हमे कुछ पता नहीं
चंद लम्हों के दामन में खुशिया समेट लाया था
अब वो लम्हे है कहाँ हमे कुछ पता नहीं
मोहब्बत ने ग़ालिब शायर बना डाला
नशा शबाब का है की हमे कुछ पता नहीं

शराब पी कर की तुम्हे भुलाने की कोशिश
पर अब जहाँ देखता हूँ तुम ही तुम हो
समझ नही आता तुम्हे ख़ुशी कहूँ या गम
हँसता हूँ तो याद आती है
रोता हूँ तो याद आती है
चेहरा तुम्हारा देखे सदिया बीत गई
जिंदा भी हूँ मैं हमे कुछ पता नहीं ||

You left me...

The day you left me I am crying

Everyone sees me happy but m dieing

I sit, i lay or even I walk

My eyes always carry a tear drop

Often I say my eyes got some problem

Better I should have been blind,

Anyway the world is too cruel to see around

A day will come when I will be nowhere around

My fainted face is enough to explain my heart

Though I try to make it smile and happy

But I am not good in artificiality and pretending

Don’t you worry I will learn these all…

May be a day will come when I wont be sad at all…

ना जाने क्यों ||

ना जाने क्यों जिंदगी को तेरी आदत सी पड़ गई 

जानते हैं की हम नहीं हैं तेरे काबिल 

ना जाने क्यों तू मेरी चाहत बन गई

जिंदगी चल रही है बस तेरे इंतज़ार में

आई जो तू मेरी साँसे थम गई

जानते थे की तुम हो कुछ पलों क लिए

फिर क्यों मुझे तेरी आदत सी पड़ गई ||

अब तुम दूर हो और हम दूर हैं

तुम खुश हो और हम मजबूर हैं

जीना होगा ऐसे भी कभी सोचा भी नहीं

रो देते हैं अक्सर तेरी तस्वीर देख कर

खुश रहना है कैसे तुम्हारे बिना, तुमने सिखाया क्यों नहीं

जिंदगी चल रही है बस जिंदगी की खातिर

क्यों तुम एक ख्वाब बनकर मेरे सीने में बस गई

सोचता हू क्यों जिंदगी को तेरी आदत सी पड़ गई ||